Yesterday was exhausting to say the least but also I know never ever take my husband grocery shopping with me it was infuriating omg!!! Me and the girls are going to finish up today by ourselves because I just can’t with him……
Ok so enough about my shitty marriage.
IM TWO WEEKS SOBER!!!
I can’t believe I made it this far omg that’s insane I’m so proud of myself. I see the positive effects sobriety is having on my mind I’m way more clearer and no more drunken blackouts, on my kids they are actually happy and we are getting out the house more and doing more stuff and they are so happy (side note: when we were grocery shopping yesterday my daughter thought she saw the nasty/icky drinks and kept saying “mommy don’t drink nasty drinks nemore” all I could do was smile and tell her no I don’t), I feel so much better over all with my health and I’m losing weight everyday, I’m actually feeling hunger and I’m sticking to my diet and drinking so much water and lemon water it’s crazy, I’m able to keep my house clean (when my kids and husband don’t mess it right back up), I’m making and keeping appointments, I’m back focused on my life and my appearance, and even though I’ve been having issues with my husband since he has been back home I’m still just overall happy and that happiness is coming from being sober. My sobriety has given me a purpose and a goal everyday and that is to get through the day without drinking no matter how many cravings I have. It’s been a couple days during my journey when I would be out and about and my brain tells me to just stop and grab a drink no one would know and then I tell myself that I will know and I want an honest count of my sobriety and I do not ever want to have to reset my progress counter.
Everyday is not perfect nor has it been lately but I can see the changes within myself and I’m happy with what I see and over time the stupid arguments with my husband won’t matter and the stress of keeping my home clean won’t matter or all the other little things won’t matter anymore the only thing that will matter is that I was strong enough to deal with it all sober and the smiles on my kids faces.
Ok ok. Let me step down off my soapbox
hallelujah!! i love reading this thank you for sharing. congratulations on two weeks and all the incredible improvements you’ve already been noticing - so profound! so powerful! i hope you’re feeling proud of yourself and excited for this new extra awesome life you’re creating. i love that your baby noticed!!! that’s so amazing you are being such a badass role model for these kids. keep up the amazing work ma!!
OMG girl – i am so very proud of you right now!!! congrats on your 2 week milestone. I know how hard you have worked to get here and do take a minute to recognize your awesomeness!
Keep strong my friend and keep stacking on these lovely sober days!
OMG Danielle whoot whoot 2 weeks!!!
I’m so happy for you and glad you shared your with us and fought your through it.
I’m so fu…ing proud of you girl.
Keep on fighting.
Sending love and strength your way!
Two weeks is amazing!! I think you are doing so well. My mum always used to say, “cleaning the house whilst the kids are growing is like shovelling snow whilst it’s still snowing!”… it’s never ending lol. Keep up the great work and keep updating us, it’s great to be with you on this blessing ms on you and your family x
Thank you all for your support and I’m so happy I’m sticking to it and I’m finally coming out in the other side. Now when I hit 30 days we have to figure out how to have a virtual party or something. I will bring the lemon water shots (i hope that joke don’t offend any one if so I will remove it).
Oh also I got this email today:
I clicked the links and read the discourse articles but what does this really mean?
Yesterday me and my 4 year old went to another store to do more grocery shopping. We were in there for probably 2 or 3 hours. We were exhausted by the time we was done. We went through self check out and we had so much stuff but my daughter she decided she wanted to scan so I got the stuff out and she scanned it all one by one and I bagged it all up. She is getting so big time is flying by and I’m so happy I’m sober to really enjoy this time. In the past I probably would have had my cup with me with my alcohol in it and a second can in my purse. I would not have gotten all the stuff I needed because I was not focused and just ready to leave before I ran out of all my drinks smh. This time we had fun we took our time and looked around and got some good stuff and healthy food. My daughter loved it oh and she has wanted a coconut for the longest so I let her actually get one. We are going to try to open it today while cleaning but I don’t think they are going to eat it I think she just liked the idea of having it and wanted to see what it does. I may try to put it in a smoothie or something for them.
Anyway after being on my feet and doing all this stuff and not getting much sleep because I go to bed late and then have to get up and drop off my husband I was just so damn tired and overworked so I just kinda put up what I could and I’m going to relax today a bit with the kids and then just clean up my home and play with my girls.
You are such a brave girl … I think thats the first real step. I know I’m late to your post (I’m new here) but I appreciate your honesty.
It’s hard to admit it at first and then scary when your willing to tell others. I commend you on your strength to make a change.
The people here are pretty amazing and I know will help us both through this journey.
Stay the course chickie and your light will shine again.
@Chuckie22 welcome to the group and to my thread. I think during recovery it’s important if you are trying to build a support system is to be honest about everything even if it’s bad. @JazzyS has been really great and has given me awesome advice and just support as well as a host of others who have commented on my thread and who have continued to come back each day to read my updates. @Chuckie22 if you don’t mind me asking how long have you been on this journey and how are you feeling overall?
You are so right, I am just beginning my journey, I’m only 5 days sober ( had an oops’ last Friday). I joined this app last week. I am still trying to figure out how to navigate this app ( I’m not very tecky, lol) Hard teaching this old dog new tricks
I haven’t figured out the tool kit part or how to follow certain threads or post on my own.
@JazzyS has been very supportive as have so many others.
I will figure out how to follow you
Thanks love - i see you doing so well! I loved reading about your grocery store adventures with your girl. Some quality time for sure. I do hope you get ample time to put your feet up and relax. we both know the house work just never gets done (its a revolving never ending cycle)-- so take the time out for yourself.
SO glad to see you @Chuckie22 – you are doing fantastic sticking to your sobriety. I was upset for you that you were not able to be seen yesterday by the doctor. I do hope you are healing well.
@Chuckie22 5 days is a long time so don’t be so hard on yourself because this is not something easy to do by no means. I thought about giving in to temptation a few times but someone told me on here to keep myself busy to not think about drinking and it has worked very well for me.
@JazzyS oh trust me I know cleaning is never done especially with kids. I think I’ve been so obsessed with cleaning because I let things go for so long during my alcoholic days. I just want to get it all done and then just tidy up as I go.
I just started my period and I have the worst periods ever since my baby and I’m cramping so bad but even still I don’t want to just lay around because I did that enough while I was drinking so that will bring back too many bad memories.
Thanks girlie
I am on the mend and keeping a positive mind set,
I’M GONNA BEAT THIS THAING!!
Your support means the world to me right now
You are most welcome!
Yeah you are! Love the kick ass attitude.
That is exactly the right attitude right there. Stay committed and make small goals each day such as making a goal to get out the house, go for a walk, clean 1 or 2 rooms today, lastly make it a daily goal hit to drink. Staying busy has helped a tones for me. Find your reason for getting clean and after you achieve those goals celebrate and then set another.,
Yesterday I planned on cleaning and organizing but I ended up only cooking and playing with my kids all day and as I played with them I got a workout for sure.
I decided to last them take their pink princess car outside. Where I live the back of our apartment gate connects to this shopping plaza with a huge parking lot type area in the back. So they drove their car to get to the other side and to that lot and they drove all over the place. I walked and at times ran behind them. We were out there for hours it was so cute I’m so mad I didn’t get pictures of them. We stopped by this water area like a pond and they got to see all the turtles swimming around (there was a gate around it so we couldn’t get too close).
When the girls got hungry they didn’t want to go home yet so I let them drive their car to McDonald’s which is in the same lot and got them a happy meal and sat outside and they ate. Then they drove home and we ended up switching cars lol and I took them to the store to grab a few things.
I cooked dinner and ended our night.
We had so much fun just playing and being outside.
When I was drinking there was no way I would have made it far because I would have been pouring sweat, out of breath, racing heartbeat, and trying to make sure I had enough drinks to last me and as soon as I ran out I would have ended the play time so we could go home. We probably would not have even went too far from home which is sad.
Yesterday was one of the benefits of being sober.
So today I’m going to clean up and organize all those groceries for sure.
It’s already 12:20pm and me and the kids are still kind of lounging around but I have to get them some brunch going because I know they are going to be hungry soon.
I’m dragging badly because my periods have just been so damn awful. The cramping and fatigue are almost unbearable at times. I want to just kind of lay around today but I also know my babies need me and I don’t want to just stay in the bed all day so I’m going to pop some Tylenol and try to hop to it I guess……
oh man having to deal with life on a bad period is bad enough but doing so and having to also take care of two youngin’s – can’t even imagine. Girl, i am so sorry. I do hope the Tylenol helps.
sounds like a lovely day yesterday love. I do hope you get some rest today :hugs;
I just wanted to let you know you motivated me to keep going and not listening to cravings. You’re doing amazing! Keep it up! I had 3 months and thought I could go to moderate drinking. Nope! Back to it and have 3 days in.