# My life & questioning sobriety
**URL:** https://talkingsober.com/t/my-life-questioning-sobriety/103826
**Category:** Your Story
**Tags:** alcohol
**Created:** [November 28, 2020, 4:28pm UTC](https://talkingsober.com/t/my-life-questioning-sobriety/103826 "2020-11-28T16:28:40Z")
**Posts on this page:** 20
**Page:** 19
### Author:  [@Lisa07](https://talkingsober.com/u/Lisa07)
#### Post date: [June 10, 2024, 10:19pm UTC](https://talkingsober.com/t/my-life-questioning-sobriety/103826/367 "2024-06-10T22:19:43Z")
Oh boy, you got a lot on your plate. Sending positive vibes your way.
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### Author:  [@Beachy](https://talkingsober.com/u/Beachy)
#### Post date: [June 10, 2024, 11:18pm UTC](https://talkingsober.com/t/my-life-questioning-sobriety/103826/368 "2024-06-10T23:18:59Z")
Thank you Sassy š
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### Author:  [@Beachy](https://talkingsober.com/u/Beachy)
#### Post date: [June 10, 2024, 11:19pm UTC](https://talkingsober.com/t/my-life-questioning-sobriety/103826/369 "2024-06-10T23:19:23Z")
Thank you Lisa š
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### Author:  [@Beachy](https://talkingsober.com/u/Beachy)
#### Post date: [June 11, 2024, 11:43pm UTC](https://talkingsober.com/t/my-life-questioning-sobriety/103826/370 "2024-06-11T23:43:38Z")
Ok writing helped. I got through- and now i can vent in person some more- my husband got back home from an out of country trip. Still mad and sad but a little less spinning in the head. Hoping Iāll get more sleep. Still ughhhhhh- but still throwing darts- one day an idea will stick.
This is one of my favorite quotes. Iām glad it popped up in my tracker
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### Author:  [@Beachy](https://talkingsober.com/u/Beachy)
#### Post date: [July 19, 2024, 12:16pm UTC](https://talkingsober.com/t/my-life-questioning-sobriety/103826/371 "2024-07-19T12:16:22Z")
I need to be more consistent in working outā¦ I wake up and tell myself I will, but want to have my coffee first- and most days get side-tracked! Or I have a meeting and miss my T/Th strength class- so trying to fill in the other days or at least make up the T/Th workouts. I feel like the fit of my pants are trending in the wrong direction- hahaha. Not good for summer!
I hashed it out with my friend- I guess that is smoothed over, but Iām still cautious and worried about how long until I feel comfortable again. And for the business it is like famine and then too much at once! life always goes like thatā¦ nothing nothing nothing- juggle everything- then repeat.
some things in the works.
trying to keep things in line, without messing up some of those business relationships. Itās either watch the competition come in - or be the competitionā¦ I guess Iād rather be the competition and make the money instead of watch someone else do it- especially if they are coming here anyway!
so hereās 1333. and hoping to hit my gym.
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### Author:  [@Beachy](https://talkingsober.com/u/Beachy)
#### Post date: [August 24, 2024, 10:05pm UTC](https://talkingsober.com/t/my-life-questioning-sobriety/103826/372 "2024-08-24T22:05:43Z")
1. Just checking in. Things are cruising. Summer is winding down. What was bothering me before had settled. Still looking for some new hobbies. All good.
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### Author:  [@Beachy](https://talkingsober.com/u/Beachy)
#### Post date: [September 2, 2024, 2:33pm UTC](https://talkingsober.com/t/my-life-questioning-sobriety/103826/373 "2024-09-02T14:33:51Z")
1378
Hope everyone is having a good day- Took a stroll to the beach- hereās a Pic of the sunset last night
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### Author:  [@tailee17](https://talkingsober.com/u/tailee17)
#### Post date: [September 3, 2024, 3:04am UTC](https://talkingsober.com/t/my-life-questioning-sobriety/103826/374 "2024-09-03T03:04:27Z")
Great picture.
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### Author:  [@Beachy](https://talkingsober.com/u/Beachy)
#### Post date: [September 25, 2024, 3:51pm UTC](https://talkingsober.com/t/my-life-questioning-sobriety/103826/375 "2024-09-25T15:51:56Z")
My 1400th day was yesterday- I noticed it was coming up on my tracker a few days ago and wanted to mark it as a good day. But the day took quite a turn, so I never got my screenshot on my tracker.
I was working a boat for a small company get together and tour around the area. Some sand bars, some waterfront restaurant stops. The boat is a little big for a single handed trip- but figured it would be all right. I ended up getting my ring finger smushed by the windlass and anchor chain. The boat is not one I usually operate- and the owner said there was an issue and I tried to do what he said, āyou have to guide the rope to the chain because it doesnāt switch automaticallyā. Basically a problem he knew about that I was trying to jimmy-rig by myself. Pulling anchor and not having a person at the helm, I was nervous and probably rushing- since I didnāt want to drift and run aground. Good times. Smushed good- ended up with a small fracture and 3 stitches from urgent care after the trip.
I have severe anxiety about needles and stitches, probably from having numerous accidents and injuries. So I pretty much turn into a mess when they are injecting the numbing needles and trying to do the stitches. Which is weird because I ran the boat for about 4 hours after the injury to finish their trip; I bandaged it twice with the help of a local restaurant. But when you get me in a Dr office with needles and knives I lose it. Really wish I had some anxiety meds at the Drās!
āSo long story short. I can get through B.S. without booze. Even when my nerves are at my worst. If I can, any of us can.
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### Author:  [@tailee17](https://talkingsober.com/u/tailee17)
#### Post date: [September 25, 2024, 3:54pm UTC](https://talkingsober.com/t/my-life-questioning-sobriety/103826/376 "2024-09-25T15:54:34Z")
So sorry about injury. Congratulations on 1400 days
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### Author:  [@SassyRocks](https://talkingsober.com/u/SassyRocks)
#### Post date: [September 25, 2024, 6:34pm UTC](https://talkingsober.com/t/my-life-questioning-sobriety/103826/377 "2024-09-25T18:34:21Z")
Ouch on your hand/fingers!!! Big congratulations on your 1,400!!! A very big deal!!! šš„³
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### Author:  [@Beachy](https://talkingsober.com/u/Beachy)
#### Post date: [September 25, 2024, 8:43pm UTC](https://talkingsober.com/t/my-life-questioning-sobriety/103826/378 "2024-09-25T20:43:21Z")
Thank you so much Sassy!
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### Author:  [@Lisa07](https://talkingsober.com/u/Lisa07)
#### Post date: [September 26, 2024, 10:45pm UTC](https://talkingsober.com/t/my-life-questioning-sobriety/103826/379 "2024-09-26T22:45:33Z")
Yay! Congratulations on 1400 days! Thatās awesome!
Sucks about your finger. Ouchie!
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### Author:  [@Beachy](https://talkingsober.com/u/Beachy)
#### Post date: [September 30, 2024, 3:32pm UTC](https://talkingsober.com/t/my-life-questioning-sobriety/103826/380 "2024-09-30T15:32:02Z")
Thank you Lisa!!!
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### Author:  [@Beachy](https://talkingsober.com/u/Beachy)
#### Post date: [September 30, 2024, 4:06pm UTC](https://talkingsober.com/t/my-life-questioning-sobriety/103826/381 "2024-09-30T16:06:24Z")
Iām so beyond irritated with my medical options where I live. Day #6, finally have apt with primary care to get my ortho referral today and she cancels - and tells me to go to urgent care again. Probably to early for stitches removal, but I need to try to get the ortho referral. Urgent care doesnāt understand- and their co-pay is a lot higher.
VA is so backed up- they put me in a weird circle last week- canāt get dr apt until urgent care records uploaded- but went in circles with 4 depts to try and get that done- walked about a mile around the facility. Never saw my dr- but sheās supposedly going to refer me to ortho- but lord knows how long that might take. Meanwhile my finger looks crookedā¦ hurtsā¦ and I canāt get a dam dr apt. š¤Æš¤Æš¤Æš¤Æ
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### Author:  [@Beachy](https://talkingsober.com/u/Beachy)
#### Post date: [October 13, 2024, 2:26pm UTC](https://talkingsober.com/t/my-life-questioning-sobriety/103826/382 "2024-10-13T14:26:11Z")
Well- I thought I was done with stitchesā¦ I finally got to an Ortho on Tuesday and he wanted Surgery on Wednesday. My nail wasnāt growing- and apparently i smushed my nail bed pretty deep. So reconstruction to try and get my nail in the right spot and pieced together to grow. So stitches againā¦ and he thinks I might need reconstruction again in the future depending on how this growsā¦ yeah.
I got the Ortho through the VA of all things- I was able to convince a scheduler to squeeze me in, and they gave me some story about their triage process and as long as Iām seen within a month (from their call- NOT injury date?!?!?) itās OK. I get triage- and yes itās just a finger break, but it is an Injury- Not like a slow onset problem. Which completely contradicted what the DR said when I saw him- He said heād hoped to see me sooner- It might already be to late to save my nail bed.
STILL havenāt heard from my paid insurance referralā¦ week 3- ugh- I really want to file a formal complaint- This was an acute injury and 3+ weeks to see a dr is insane!
Sorry- just venting- our health care is so out of whack ā¹ and this is sad for me because I had really gotten into doing my nails myself (never did them while in military due to the regulations- and bought a bunch of fun halloween stuff to doā¦ ugh
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### Author:  [@Lisa07](https://talkingsober.com/u/Lisa07)
#### Post date: [October 13, 2024, 2:36pm UTC](https://talkingsober.com/t/my-life-questioning-sobriety/103826/383 "2024-10-13T14:36:00Z")
Oh no! Sorry to hear the injury is more complicated than original thought. Sending you healing vibes.
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### Author:  [@Beachy](https://talkingsober.com/u/Beachy)
#### Post date: [October 13, 2024, 4:07pm UTC](https://talkingsober.com/t/my-life-questioning-sobriety/103826/384 "2024-10-13T16:07:46Z")
Thank you so much Lisa! š¤©š„°
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### Author:  [@Beachy](https://talkingsober.com/u/Beachy)
#### Post date: [October 28, 2024, 3:17pm UTC](https://talkingsober.com/t/my-life-questioning-sobriety/103826/385 "2024-10-28T15:17:51Z")
My sober October 28
1434.
Restless lately- husband has the crud- not sure if itās his coughing or what, but Iāve been waking up super early this week. I watched Dracula this morning before he got up and now Iām thinking- we had this conversation the other day about scary movies and how they were petrifing as kids, but now some of them are comical. So now Iām wondering- kind of like how sobriety was petrifing a couple years ago- now itās very enjoyable and I donāt want to go back to that scary past. I donāt feel like Iām missing out- I can go places, do travel work trips and go to events. I know what I want to order (or bring). I can host parties.
So even though it scared the bejezzus out of me and I was white knuckles for awhile- I did it and now itās easy- just me now. And almost comical how humongous all those scary hurdles seemed- just like those old scary movies
So sober for Oct 28.
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### Author:  [@tailee17](https://talkingsober.com/u/tailee17)
#### Post date: [October 28, 2024, 3:39pm UTC](https://talkingsober.com/t/my-life-questioning-sobriety/103826/386 "2024-10-28T15:39:19Z")
I am out of likes this morning. Just want to say love the postā¦ As for scary movies ā¦ I began at a very young age accompanied by my Dad who just loved them and always made something funny during the really hide behind the blanket moments. I rewatch all those Dad and I shared and remember every joke he made. Good Memories. Thanks.
Oh and wow 1434 days sober ā¦ Congratulations.
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