I’m not thinking I’m missing out (i really don’t miss the pounding headaches booze gives me)- but I’m just not feeling included sometimes. So that’s what bugs me.
You know the waiter goes around asking for everyone’s drink- this type of margarita- this type of liquor, salt / no salt, frozen / rocks, what’s on draft… and I’m just- more lemons for my water please. Which he forgets. Just feel like the boring one sometimes.
I could order some fancy AF drink, but it’s not worth the money most of the time. They charge the same price!
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5th day sober lost my girlfriend lost my 3y old daughter ex won’t talk to me but im fighting for my daughter
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Hey. Sorry to hear your struggling,somebody (that knows how cos I don’t) will post a forum where you can get some support And suggestions from lots and lots of TS members …‘checking in daily…’
I think you are doing an amazing job. Your group of friends seems like they drink heavily, and I don’t really understand letting the kids drink 
. Do you have any sober friends to hang with every once in a while? My sober community locally for me is a godsend. Hang in there, @Beachy. You are awesome.
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214- crossed into month 8. Onto new beginnings in so many areas of my life. Feels good. I have the mental energy to remember new names! I’ve never been able to remember names- such a little thing- but makes a big impact (to me) in the first few days at a new job.
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Thank you! They do drink a lot. I’m trying to find new people- but it’s hard. One couple just moved- we got along with them the best. So I guess looking for new opportunities with some new people 
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Congratulations on 8 months. Your growth is evident and worth celebrating. Hope you treat yourself to something special.
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I am not good differentiating a face let alone the name. Next to my office there is a bunch of young male engineers that look much all the same to me 
my colleague is always trying to desperately getting their names stuck i my brain. Unlucky so far. Buuuuuut I know they are working in the office next to me. Yeah
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I will have to think of something!
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Conversation cues help too! Hopefully you can pick them up in time 
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love that movie!
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A bit late to the party, but I just read your story.
I’ve tried the controlled drinking thing for years and always the same eventual outcome. Lying in my bed for days feeling remorseful and wanting to never do that again! But days, weeks, months later I’d convince myself I was better and begin the whole cycle again.
Right now I’m thinking sobriety is the only answer and I’ve accepted my problem and the fact that 90% of the time one beer turns into waking up after blacking out fully dressed next to an empty bottle of spirits. Fuck knows what I had done and who I had upset.
Anyways… It was good to read on and see your lengthy sobriety. It is something to aspire to.
Congratulations 
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Thank you @TheWolf.
I struggled for many many years to be a “normal” drinker… but it always ended up the same place. I’d get a hold on it every now and then for a little bit- but it always took over- like some weird compulsion. Inevitably ended up in blackouts and fights and days upon days of feeling miserable.
This is the first time I’ve kind of logged this stuff like this and it seems to be working this time. I still have ups and downs- but I can read back and remind myself of my “why” I’m doing this.
I do still miss it- felt a little out of place at a family birthday last night- but I know if I had drank- today would be horrible.
So long story short I guess I finally got sick and tired of being sick and tired enough to educate myself more on the poison, got some counseling to help with those buried issues and made some changes. Really just taking one moment at a time. Not drinking right now. I’m feeling way better about it- my life is way better then it was the past 10-15 years. I finally feel more in control.
I hope you can find a way that works for you! Sharing here and rambling sometimes helps me get through a tricky moment. It’s just nice to get it out of my head sometimes. You can do it!
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I can’t express how proud of you I am @Beachy! I remember when you came on the forum and watching you grow in your sobriety has been a blessing! Not only are you showing so much more self confidence and comfort in your sobriety skin, you’re an inspiration 
I can only imagine how much you are glowing in real life. Big hugs to your awesome success!!! 
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Aww thank you @Ravikamor - I sure don’t feel like one! you all have been great in here- it really helps just getting this stuff out of my head. Hope you are having a wonderful day!
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Was restless yesterday… needed to get out of the house- sick of doing chores. Our friends moved, so kinda lonely… didn’t want to go to the pool since I could hear all the neighborhood kids screaming. So just drove to the beach to take a quick walk in the sand, enjoy the wind, smell the air and listen to the waves…
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I want to make money without needing alarm clocks… or far drives… or a lot of hours. If I didn’t know it was addicting I might start playing the lottery…
Family is out floating the river and I’m stuck working new job with out any time off saved up 
My two best friends both had really bad weeks. One was in the hospital from a wreck. The others mother died.
I really need to work on eating better and cut back on sugar and caffeine…
One step at a time.
I’m tired from another day with a headache.
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Beachy, i was reading over your journey in these posts. Awesome Job! Congrats on your progress. Very inspiring to me at day 6 this time around……
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Thank you @CueBall8n9 . I’ve learned a lot and overall am much happier with my ability to deal with curve balls life keeps throwing at me. I wish it didn’t take me this long to get control of it.
Congrats on 6 days! Those first two weeks were the hardest. YOU GOT THIS! Just keep posting and sharing!
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