You are probably familiar with the saying about faith without works. In the case of alcohol and drugs, there is specific work to be done, and some questions about faith and doubt to be answered, and none of it will undermine your core belief. The work of sobriety will make your faith stronger and easier.
For today, you can make and meet the goal of putting a sober head on your pillow tonight. Here are some threads about how people get and stay sober.
Blessings on your house as you begin your journey.
as you begin your journey.