When I first met your fire it was love at first sight, at first taste, at first drunken haze.
I forgot all my woes all my fears, my doubts and apprehension. I was free, so I thought, from all of life’s tension.
I didn’t care about yesterday, or fear the uncertain tomorrow. I was living in the “now” on freedom I borrowed.
But in the fine print were a thousand sorrows…
It started out fun, exciting, and new. The confidence you gave me, my security grew.
I knew you were for me and I was for you. Forever I’d be faithful, you’d never be untrue.
Slowly it shifted from choice to a need, a driving inside an insatiable greed. I needed you more than you needed me. I wanted your relief, you could make me free.
But every time I trusted you, you pushed me to my knees.
Violently you ravaged every fiber of my soul, angrily you beat me to a bloody fucking pulp.
Your blows came down upon me like savage angry waves, pushing me deeper and deeper till life and breath were far away.
I was desperate now to leave you, the life I let you rape, but every time I tried you slammed the door,there’s no escape.
Weak and beaten, raw and bare, I layed down to die.
Frozen in my helpless state I could not even cry.
Emptiness is all I felt, nothing…
blackness…
void.
I could not even lift my head, the pain i could not avoid.
It’s over now, you’ve won this war. you took me captive, Now I’m your whore.
And just as you were about to shut the door, a savior came and shouted “no more!”
“No more will you ravaged and steal and bite!” thrusting in my hand a sword he screamed, “now stand and fight!” He lifted my arms and raised up my head, whispered in my ear, “don’t stop till it’s dead.” Pushing me onward I now felt true strength. Leading me forward raising my rank. I now fight along side him the one I once loved, its evil twisted ways exposed from above.
I can never go back or be with you again. I’m saying goodbye you were never my friend.
