My name is Erica and I am an alcoholic

Hello everyone. I am 26 years old. I have tried to stay sober before but I have failed many, many times. Ever since I was 16 I knew that alcohol was my cup of tea. I have always had trust, abandonment, self confidence issues and the list goes on and on. I was engaged at 22. To a very abusive man. I have been in very toxic relationships. I drank to numb my mind. Every thought I had hurt me emotionally and mentally. I was dealing with intrusive thoughts every single day. These past few years I started drinking heavily Daily. I couldn’t go anywhere without needing a drink, not even the movies. In the best 5 months I have been hospitalized 5 times, a mixture of withdrawals and panic attacks. Every time I went I thought I was going to die, this last time, I wanted to. However, for some reason it wasn’t my time to go. I believe now that there is a reason for me to be here. To truly LIVE my life. The past few years feel like a blur. I lost everything I had, my job, car, the respect from family and friends. I lost myself completely. My life was complete shit and it was because of addiction. I decided a couple weeks ago that I was ready. I was tired of feeling so miserable and helpless. I checked myself into a 10 day detox. It was the best decision I have made so far. I am now attending CA meetings and am hoping to get into an AA program. I am doing this for ME. I deserve to be happy. I let down so many people. I am barely starting a sober life but I know it will be worth it in the end. I don’t want to die from this addiction. I have faith in God and myself and that’s all I need. Good luck to you all in recovery!((: my ears are always open to the rest of those who are lost. We can do this!(:

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Hi Erica-Your story reminds me much of mine. Im 5 months sober now… I’m glad you are here we can do this :heart:️ Life is seriously so much better on the other side.

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Hi Erica,

Thanks for sharing your story with us. I’m happy you’ve decided to choose sober life, it’s worth it.

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Me too(: thank you for the support!

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Keep it up. I’m at a week. It’s the hardest thing I ever did. 35 years old and started heavy at 22. Daily. Keep praying and go on here day to day. Goodluck!

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Congratulations on your sobriety!(: day by day we got this! Thank you for your support!

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Thank you so much for your encouraging testimony. Thank you.
I am in my 5 day sober dealing with Porn and Masturbation addiction since I was 13 years old now I am 42. Pray for me and thank you again

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Thank you for sharing. I can relate and it helps me to hear you say this to remind me that I don’t want to go back there.

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Praying for you and thank you for sharing. It shows strength to share.

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Thanks for sharing and welcome!!! Scary how much control it can take over our lives!!! I’m ok day 5, again, and hoping this will finally be the last day 5

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Thanks for your words.

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Thank you for sharing your story Erica! For just starting your road to recoverg, it sounds like your head is certainly in the right place. God bless, you can do this!

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Thanks for sharing your story with us Erica. Stay with us and keep us updated. I admire your strength and willingness. You are a wonderful inspiration to us. Have a happy sober day!

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That sounds just like my story, even with all the trips to the ER with withdrawals and panic attacks, I’ve found that my ability to stay clean and sober is directly related to the work I put in to my recovery. This is literally life and death. You can do this!

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I agree completely. I have been given so many chances I need to set truly living and loving my days to the fullest. I tell myself that every day. Do or die. Good luck on your recovery. Thank you for the kind words.

Thank you for sharing Erica, I can relate to a lot of your story, also trying to get sober from alcohol in my 20s. I’m right on the brink of loosing everything, so I’ll be counting on sharing on this daily.

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A positive attitude and a will to win are the bedrock upon which victory is built. Regardless of the challenges you face, keep getting after it. Every day, get better at getting better.

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It has helped me a lot. Just being able to share and relate to others with the same problems a d addiction. You’re right all you need is the will to quit. Everything else just falls into place.

I love that.

Thank you for sharing your story♥️
Keep on keeping on🌻

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