I have made a final decision. Tomorrow is Day One of Sobriety for me.
I’ve been trying to stay sober for months now, but only managing 48hrs most times. More recently, I managed a 6 day streak, but Friday night came around and with it came the impulsivity and compulsion to use.
I use in secret, no one knows except other addicts on here and those that I’ve met at my first two NA meetings.
My various addictions have served me since I was a young child, I am closing this huge chapter now, and stepping into sobriety. It’s a new month tomorrow, and a new day.
I did an online meeting tonight, they are miracles in themselves and they always make me feel like this really is what is meant for me and I am ready now.
So I’ve created this topic for me to use as a bit of a journal. I’ve got physical journals too but would rather not carry them around with me incase anyone ever goes in my bag. So this will be back up for when I’m not at home.
I really feel like this is it now, I’m so connected to my Higher Power at the moment, it’s really hard to put into words but it’s just really showing me it’s got my back.
I read on here for many hours a day, and there is so much information & support, it’s amazing. So thank you all for being here