I have made a final decision. Tomorrow is Day One of Sobriety for me.
I’ve been trying to stay sober for months now, but only managing 48hrs most times. More recently, I managed a 6 day streak, but Friday night came around and with it came the impulsivity and compulsion to use.
I use in secret, no one knows except other addicts on here and those that I’ve met at my first two NA meetings.
My various addictions have served me since I was a young child, I am closing this huge chapter now, and stepping into sobriety. It’s a new month tomorrow, and a new day.
I did an online meeting tonight, they are miracles in themselves and they always make me feel like this really is what is meant for me and I am ready now.
So I’ve created this topic for me to use as a bit of a journal. I’ve got physical journals too but would rather not carry them around with me incase anyone ever goes in my bag. So this will be back up for when I’m not at home.
I really feel like this is it now, I’m so connected to my Higher Power at the moment, it’s really hard to put into words but it’s just really showing me it’s got my back.
I read on here for many hours a day, and there is so much information & support, it’s amazing. So thank you all for being here
Good job! My 1st day was Thanksgiving, so i am 3 days in. If i didnt, i would be dead or back in jail, im 40, time to grow up. Im determined, its fucking hard, no lie, ive beem in bed in my sweatpants since wednesday night. Keep us posted on your progress, you inspire me, we all inspire each other, trust me.
Meetings, this app, my family supporting me. My parents dont drink so i moved in with them. Eating lots of sweets, i swear, the last three days i pigged out.
Here in L.A., theyre okay…i hate meetings, im not a meetings guy…its depressing. It all happened when my lady ended our 9 year relationship because i changed, we are both alcoholics, and she said i changed, which i did, i wanted a change, so dealing with sobriety, depression and utter heartbreak. Oh well.
Amazing! You’ll see the longer your sober the more spiritual you’ll feel. You’ll feel everything around you so deeply in a good way. My days have become more solitary but deeply enriching. Immersing in books, meditation, writing, self care, nature. A big part is embracing the dark side of yourself and loving flaws and all… and letting it go. It’s not easy, it’s hard work. But so fulfilling. Keep up the strength and good work.! Wake up daily and start off by thanking YOURSELF and thinking about what you’re grateful for. The little motivations help. You got this!
Welcome Tyler I can tell that you are going to do well just from your two days spent reading on here, there are so many struggling people on here who do not use this place fully.
How are you doing today bud?
I’ve been sober since mid August. The pigging out has not ended yet. -.-" my bf has commented on it when he didn’t use to comment on the fast rotation of wine bottles in the fridge… Life is funny!
Im willing. Ive been to so many court ordered meetings. Just not my thing, but maybe i havent found the right one? I dunno. I see a therapist though, I work out, and I do art paintings and stuff, that seems to be therapy, but are meetings a must? Im quiet and shy and introverted as it is.
Maybe the difference is the your were court ordered to be there before and this time you actuator want to be and acknowledge the need to be sober. This thing is only possible when we want it not when we are forced in to it. Best of luck.
Absolutely, its an awakening and enlightenment to WANT to be sober. Its a journey it seems like, not a destination. Theres a meeting by my house on Thursdays i might go to.
What about rehab, is it okay to get sober without going to rehab like all the celebrities do? I want to do rehab, just to get the tools i need for this journey.
Course it’s okay, I’ve never been to rehab, you can learn a lot of the tools from searching on here. If I had the chance to then I would have gone though but it’s very expensive here in the UK.
I feel so connected to my Higher Power, even more so today than when I started the thread. I keep seeing the same numbers everywhere, and feeling this life force wrap itself around me so I’m protected. I don’t really have any tactics to avoid cravings, I just know that I need to, and the time is now. If I can get the rest of this month under my belt, I’m confident I can then go on living sober and free from this hell.
