Hello everyone… and thank you for posting all the positively!
Ive been trying to be sober from alcohol through all the “on my own” methods for almost 3 years. I’ve installed and uninstalled this app several times even though I find it very helpful when my head is in the right place.
Finally I walked into a recovery center the other day and signed up for IOP. I start on the 25th. Today is day 4 without a drink. Detox wasn’t bad since I’m a binge drinker…more like a bad hangover for a day.
The stumbling block for me is “never having another drink in moderation”.
I’ve tried it over and over…gone days, weeks, months without a drink… Then I have one at a meal or something…and subtly over time, days weeks, months…I’m right back down the rabbit hole.
I cannot get my head right about this. I already want to cancel the program I joined…ugh!
Thanks in advance
Ps…I wrote this draft around 8/20 and forgot to post it🙄.
IOP is going well, learning a lot. Finding the groups very supportive and helpful to know I’m not alone.
I lean more toward the Smart Recovery path, but no in person meetings nearby so I finally went to my first AA meeting today and really enjoyed it.
A few relapses since this all started but minor ones compared to my regular pattern, with the exception of Sunday night. So with my migraine / hangover, I of course finished the last couple shots in the bottle so that there’s none in the house. Heaven forbid I flush that poison down the drain:roll_eyes:
My husband “held the mirror in front of my face” first thing this morning and I HATE what I see and who I’ve become and how much I’ve hurt my loved ones. I need to beat this! I AM AN ALCOHOLIC!
There…I said it will sink in!