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Wow, can’t belive I’m about to do this. Yesterday had a bad relapse. Finally ready to admit my problem is beyond my control. By 11 I was hammered, got in an accident, amazingly didn’t get a DUI, and couldn’t find my house because I was that drunk. I’m ashamed and embarrassed. I’m ready for sobriety and the work it will take. I even am considering rehab. Right now the only thing keeping my afloat is the idea that Robert Downey JR was able to rebound and earn everyone’s trust and respect back so can I. Right now I have cut all my friends out because of the shame I am consumed by. I could have hurt someone yesterday! One minute at a time, I know, but this is unbearable.

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I spent a night in jail w my mom cause we were so drunk from a family bowling night. That was my first wake up. My second day was that I was pushing my husband away. I k ow I have a problem nd I wanna fix it

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Hi @LRR sending lots love and hugs your way!! Can you go to a meeting? I was terrified the first time I went to one. You can ask questions online through AA website (I asked about the meeting before i went!). - Karen (20 days sober after 67 days, with one “wine night” in between :wink:)

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I am going to my first AA meeting tonight and am terrified. It could have been a lot worse but this is rock bottom. I don’t want to talk to any of my friends, my mom is sick of me acting like a 21 year old college kid (I’m 33), and my poor husband is sick of treating me like a child. How do I cope with the shame and guilt? I still can’t believe the cop let me go yesterday. Plus, how drunk do you have to be to not be able to find your own house? I just want to have one positive thought…struggling really badly. Hope this meeting is what I need.

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@LRR, it’s “one day at a time…” Worry about yourself and be kind to yourself for today! You are strong, and this is a huge, brave step! I m proud of you!! (hugs)

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Good on you LRR take that first step going to a meeting I went to my first meet at 34. Im 65 on the 23 rd Jan. Never went out for a drink stayed sober if I can work for this old scots guy it can work for anyone who’s willing to make a decision and commitment to stop drinking best of luck your no longer alone.

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Sometimes the scariest of things are what’s best for you. AA is the beginning of a new life for you. Give it a chance and keep going back. You’ll meet people and have a life you never knew existed.

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There’s a lot of things racking up in quick succession and coming to a head there LRR.
Your mother and husband worn down by your actions.
In your words you got hammered yesterday.
You took your life and those of others in your hands by then driving.
You got in an accident!
A cop stopped you!
He let you go!
You were so drunk you couldn’t find your house.
And tonight you’re going to an AA meeting.
From an outsider’s point of view (for me) it’s as though someone or something’s stepped in, just when your life could have taken a very dark turn. Intervention possibly.
So don’t beat yourself up, maybe something wonderful’s just happened!

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I actually did it! I went to my first ever AA meeting. Not taking for granted the luck I had yesterday. I was scared but it wasn’t bad at all. Guess all the support I can get is what I need. Thanks for the encouragement, even though it is only day 1.

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Hi @LRR, remember that you are not alone,we are all here to help and support you. we understand…Be kind to yourself and well done for saying enough is enough :blush: x

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Im glad you taking your life more seriously, for you to live your life how the best for you . You are tough person we all are tough .willingness is an awesome thing , im very happy you went to a Aa meeting , keep comming back because thats working . Be Proud, its never to late for changing .Stay positive .i hope you will like it in your Aa group .if not find another . Best wishes to you @LRR

Hi, I had a similar drunken episode 4 years ago and hurt my hubby really badly emotionally. I have only just seen the light and am now 61 days sober, I attend aa and it has helped tremendously, I have also pushed my hubby away for a long time and I am struggling to make amends, sending you love and sober vibes!! X

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Well done LRR now the journey begins get plenty of phone numbers your no longer alone get into the middle of the bed as my sponsor used to say lol

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