I never thought I would be here. I have known so many people with addictions over the years and that was always them, not me. I was in a relationship with an alcoholic a few years ago and ended it as soon as I realized that’s what he was suffering from. So many things about him and our relationship became clear once that puzzle piece clicked into place.
I started drinking a lot more than usual while we were together. He was constantly offering since he was constantly drinking. After we split, I found myself turning to alcohol on my bad days in addition to celebratory occasions. The past year, it has kept increasing and I feel like I’m slowly sliding down a hill, trying not to look down. I feel like I can’t control my drinking and it’s so humiliating for me. Because of that, I haven’t told anyone that I’m struggling. I never thought this would be me and that scares me.