I spent 4 years in sobriety. Before that I was an alcoholic for 6 years. The last year was full blown. Liter of vodka a day. Drinks every couple hours to keep away the shakes until I could go home and finish off the liter. Knew nothing about withdrawals. Thought I’d shake for a couple of days with little to no sleep. I was wrong. Grand mal seizure, 6 day stay in a shithole rehab center and I never wanted to drink again. Didn’t even take the Antabuse. I WAS DONE! Got my life together. Quit my job. Got healthy. Went to the gym. Got my dream job. Most importantly, I was a better father and husband. I became the man I was supposed to the be.
Then I picked up again. Thought I could do it. Even convinced my wife I could socially drink again. And I did. A few months later that came to an end. I was binge drinking a 1.75 liter of vodka on my 3 days off from work(I work 6 on/ 3 off) Never touched it at work. Then slowly it caught up with me. I was having mild withdrawals at work. Racing heart coupled with high anxiety and my sleep suffered. Took some days off because I was going to dry out. I ended up drink 2-1.75 liter bottle of vodkas in the span of 6 days. That was the end.
Checked myself into the hospital after my last drink on 12-22-2016 which was at 0800. BAC finally got down to 0 AROUND 2200 that night, so Doc gave me 50mg Librium with a prescription for a taper.
My name is Anthony and I’m an alcoholic
Thanks for sharing and welcome!!!
Welcome @Mester Thank you for sharing your story.
Welcome. I’m sorry to hear the up and down you’ve gone through. Your story does help drive home the concept that it doesn’t matter if it’s been 10 or 30 years it’s always there waiting.
@Mester, I’m also glad to have you on here my friend. Your story is very close to mine except for the getting sober for 4 year part in which I’ve never been able to do. Not in 24 years of using… Your drinking habits were very close to mine as well. I love me some vodka, the 100 proof kind to be exact. On a regular night I didn’t put down quite as much, but a normal work night was about a half 5th and a 6 pack of hard cider on the side. Of course if I was off the next day I could easily pound a liter. I was lucky enough not to have the physical withdrawals you suffered from, just some discomfort the first 3 days or so. Once again, welcome!
Thanks. I didn’t start off with a liter. I just ended that way. I built such a huge tolerance that my body needed more and more. It’s not my proudest moment.
Merv, alcoholic.
I hear ya. When I got up to a fifth of vodka or rum a day and not even feeling drunk, just maintaining my withdrawal symptoms, that got real scary to me.
Of course I didn’t think I would end up with basically a drive-by intervention, then right into detox, then now going on 4 months sober, but I slowly watched myself slip into this situation over the past few years. I completely relate to the feeling still, though. Much love out there.