inhales deeply… sighs
Okay here it goes. So first of all my name is Matthew. I am here because, well, I am an addict. I am addicted to pornography, M.B. and sex. It is something I am really emberassed and not so proud of. But this is my diseases. So I used to be pretty good about maintaining a healthy level of control over my tendencies when it comes to pornography. But as of 8 months ago it sorta just popped up again outta no where. I am seriously having a tough time with it mainly because well, it’s right there in my face. Laptops, smartphone & t.v. it is conveniently very simple to access. I still am not entierely certain as to why I have all these tendencies, and overwhelming urges. It also concerns me because, I truely andwhole heartedly believe I have found the woman that Jesus and God have set aside just for me. I made sure she was aware of my struggle and that I do not want it to potentially interfere with our potentially awesome Jesus journey together. That is what I call living the life of a true christian who devoubtly live on faith/hope as well as scriputre… A Jesus journey. Anyhow. I truely do want to put an end to this nonsense of addiction or atleast take back control and dominian over it. Fir the sake of my relationship with Jesus/God and this conciderate young woman. I do not want to simply do this only to make another human being happy especially one I am growing in love with day by day. But simply to honor The King God/Jesus, this young lady, and myself. Out of love, respect and careful concideration.But for some reason or another I am too affraid that I will relapse and again and that the consequences could be quite harsh. This woman could choose to cut ties with me. It worries me that her perseption of me might turn into weakness or disloyalty to both her god and my own body/mind/soul. I just don’t know what to do or how to go about sobriety for such a curse. Anybody?..
There is a few around the community fighting the same issues. I’m sure they will share their experiences with you. Until your post gets going use the search function and check out some recent and maybe not so recent posts. Good luck you are not alone in any way. It’s a fight to battle addiction. Keep your head up and stay strong
Hey there, brotha. I’m in the same boat. i don’t have the religiosity you do, I just don’t like not being in control. On this forum, look for me, @Victorious, @KevinesKay. I think we’re the most vocal currently. @KevinesKay probably will be the best for you to read, just because he, like you, is a believer, and his story is pretty inspiring.
Someone said to me recently on this forum that porn “serves up a feast on a platter.” It’s easy to satisfy every sexual proclivity you have, and develop new ones. That’s why it’s so tough.
Give it hell, bro, we’re there for you.
Awww you quoted me 
yeah,porn is amazing in that way,but that’s part of why it’s so horrible. But I think we’ve got a great support system,whether you’re a porn/masturbation addict or drugs/alcohol addict, this is a special place.