Where do I even begin?
My name is Liz i am 26 years old
In school i always found myself around the older crowd. Which of course pushed me into the partying stage pretty early. It started with the drinking then smoking and occasional or not so occassional pill popping. Im not sure if i could even say thankfully, but thankfully the drinking is the only thing that stuck with me.
Anyways, drinking started as a weekend thing, then to the weekly party or get together. Over the last 2 years it turned into if not everyday than every other day.
At this point i was in a relationship with someone who was also a heavy drinker… it stopped being fun and started to become drunken arguing most of the time. As that relationship ended i realized i was really going down hill and my sanity was on the line. Alcohol was my crutch for so many years already, happy? Grab a drink. Sad? Drink! Etc. I decided to put the bottle down and get sober. I lasted 60 days before i found myself crying on a curb with lost house and car keys. Paying $300 for a locksmith and another $400 for a new car kewfob. Cool… you think that would have been one of those “thats what you get moments” instead it was just another reason to drink… for 9 months i chased the bottom of the bottle like it was going out of style. The only time o was “sober” was when i was at my job and 9 out of 10 i was still drunk from being out till 6am amd getting there by 8am. I was literally drowning myself. All my money and time was spent on this binge… when finally one day i woke up and aaid emough is enough. My bestfriend (we were kind of dating) went off to rehab over night with no warning. I figured hey, my drinking buddy is gone and that is reason enough to try and stop…not for her… but for myself… in my mind i felt that if i didnt have that extra pusb to be out all night every night, id keep my ass at home. So i did!
Here i am 1m and 28 days sober. I spent my first birthday in 10 years SOBER on nov 8 which i wasnt sure id make it through. I am not feeling as good as i would like to be feeling just yet. But atleast im feeling! Right? Im just at the begining but thats the best place to be right now.
Thank you all for letting me share. I am new to this forum and have mainly dealt with my sobriety and “problem” alone up until this moment.
