I am new here and honestly i’m not sure if i’m an addict. I don’t wake up with shakes i don’t think about drinking or doing cocaine 24/7. But the reason i do those things is to cope with my trauma. I do it to burying my problem. I am a mean drunk. I just get so angry and lash out. It’s unhealthy and scary. I don’t like the person alcohol makes me. i don’t like the person cocaine makes me. I am not what theses drugs make me. I know i’m a good person, but i act far from it under the influence. So, tonight is the night! I’m done! I want to heal from my trauma and stop drowning them in substances. Like i said, i don’t know if i’m an addict. But i do think sobriety is a good choice for me!
I am only 22 years old, and boy do i got stories. I’ve done so so many regrettable things under the influence. I am so close to destroying all the relationships around me. All because i am a terrible drunk and do terrible things. I can’t do this to the people i love! Furthermore, i can’t destroy myself. I’m done chasing a happiness from substances! I think this app, plus therapy is a great start for my sobriety journey!
Welcome to the site! You’ve come to a good place for support, information and help. Congratulations on making the decision for yourself that you no longer want the behavior that you’ve had and you want something different. That is what is so important.
Welcome LL.
From what you’re saying I believe sobriety is the better choice for you too.
Have a good read around. This is a great sober community. Join in when you’re comfortable.
You use drugs to “cope” with life. You realize you create problems with this behaviour. You realize that taking drugs changes your personality (like every mind-altering substance). You repeat the intake despite you dislike the outcome.
I guess you have answered your own question already.
Recovery is about learning to navigate life and emotions. Building up strategies, a toolbox, learning about ourselfs and what we need to live our lifes without wanting to escape. Spoiler: Sitting with uncomfortable feelings and situations, learning to just let them pass is a huge part of it.
Get help, educate yourself about addiction, go to therapy, join a program, go to rehab, adress your issues behind. Keep us posted, you are not alone
Always better to be sober wondering if you are an addict, than an addict wondering if you can get sober.
Whether you accept the addict label or not, there is clearly misuse of alcohol and drugs, and AA and NA are open for anyone who wants to stop. Other programs too, I’m sure. As a fellow “is it really bad enough?” thinker, getting that help was one of the best things I ever did.
