Welcome to the community Kristy.
Addiction really is so tricky and deceiving. It takes hold of you without your knowledge. You evtajen the step towards becoming sober and that is awesome.
We can not do this alone. Glad you found this community as it has been my saving grace. A lot of great threads to read through and loads of support here.
Check out this thread. We do need a plan in place to help us through.
I found that staying busy and changing up my routines helped me stay sober. Do not think of this as a forever thing. You will work on just staying sober for today. Wake up tomorrow and repeat the process.
Here’s another thread that may be helpful.
Wishing you luck and hope to see you around 