Welcome Kaleigh! My advice for the holidays would be to spend as much time as you can with people who understand you and your experiences, and don’t judge you for them.
Talking Sober is full of lots of people who understand. Another helpful place a lot of people visit is recovery meetings (these are free and are available in person and online). There’s a list of groups here: Resources for our recovery
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