I recently just completed an extensive treatment program successfully (whoop whoop), and right afterwards moved states. I’m living with sisters, which I knew wasn’t gonna be a walk in the park. But, well, the few times I’ve drank since being here is telling me I wasn’t quite as prepared as I thought.
They don’t quite “get it” (not that they’ve asked) and they are quite actually the epitome of a functioning alcoholic. Those lovely double standards, am I right?
Disregarding the easy excuse that I have a full time job and there’s no AA meetings I’ve found super near where I am, I’m coming to realize I need to take a few steps back, remember all I’ve learned and get back on track. I can’t do it alone, I’ll be the first to say that!
So, while I struggle to work through the crippling depressive rut I’ve worked myself into…here I am! Reaching out, hoping I can both get help and maybe help someone else in the future. Or process. Who knows!
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You said it right there man. Take a step back and revisit everything from the program.
If the sisters are drinking then that’s not going to help either!
Can you attend AA meetings?
You can do this. You started the process with the program, can you see what made you start drinking. Can that be changed
Loads of people in here to hang with, any time of day.
Stay strong.
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It’s a rent free place to stay for the moment but it comes with its struggles for sure. Yeah they drink and it’s kind of a “Oh well just don’t do it. You need to get help” kind of reaction I get.
I do want to find an AA meeting where I am. I’m stressed about a lot of other things atm so that’s why I reached out here, because at least for now it was something thing.
I’d say self awareness is something I’m good at, I drink for oh so many reasons.
Thanks for the reply back! Hope your day is going easier than mine.
That’s pretty cool that they are letting you stay rent free. The drink in the house could be a problem. I suppose you have to be strong with yourself.
I know exactly what you mean about problems and drinking. The big problem is they don’t go away!!
I’ve got financial stuff going on that I just keep putting off but I know I got to sort them soon. Very soon!
Last night I felt really crap! The day started ok. Things were ok at work but by the time I got home I felt like I was going to explode. I had a pounding headache and couldn’t stay awake. I was in bed asleep by 9.
Feel ok this morning, not brilliant but ok.
I’m not going to drink though. I’ve made this promise to myself and I need to be honest with myself.
How are you doing now?
Yeah, though I found out only one sister wanted me here and my other one and brother in law don’t want me here at all and have bad feelings towards me. I think finding that out was what really made me start thinking hard again.
It’s so easy to just ignore things, isn’t it?? Then sometimes it can all come crashing down on top of you in a harsh reminder. I’m sure you’ll start getting it done slowly but surely.
You’re strong, you’re admitting you want to drink but you’re committed to your promise. You got this.
I am feeling way better than earlier that’s for sure. It’s actually super late here, but insomnia has been kicking my behind lately. I’m feeling more relaxed, think I’ll be able to sleep soon. Tomorrow is a new day!
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One truth that I learned on my journey… 99% of my problems I created myself. I can blame the alcoholic me when I do bad, or blame the real me for the good and bad. I know with every ounce of my being, Alcohol leads to misery with me.
The best advice I have for you is find some thing to dedicate your life to. Maybe listen to podcast, read and read, and continue to visit us. Perhaps get a second job to kill time and your finiancial issues. Maybe, back to school? Finally, don’t be a prisoner in your own mind, and certainly not a slave to alcohol.
Keep coming back!
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Ahhh, that can’t be nice. Not feeling secure and safe. I suppose the thing to do is make yourself useful to them. Let them see that you are committed to your future. And also plan for finding your own place when you can.
Insomnia is not nice. Last night was the first night I’ve slept all the way through for ages! I usually turn to this site or read a book.
Stay strong and safe Taylor. Hope you sleep well.
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Shattered_dreams – Thanks for the suggestions! That’s actually exactly what I’ve been trying to do. I’m in the process of signing up for this dog walking thing. I’ve also become absolutely obsessed with podcasts.
Oh so many reasons to stay sober, just gotta remember them.
Thanks a lot Geo! I slept very well actually, and managed to get up earlier than I have been all week. I’m awake and feeling strong and prepared to make it another day.
Any good recs on books? I love a great horror!
Hope you have a wonderful day~
I’m here today because I’m feeling successful. My family I live with had a rough fight (not all to do with myself) but it’s made things fairly awkward and stressful at home.
After a long day of work I was staring hard at this brewery I pass on my commute home. I’ve relapsed there recently, I know they have amazing happy hour prices. Just one drink. Won’t be bad, right? NOT TODAY!
I turned my back and walked. A. Way. I get to add another notch to my sobriety belt.
I have a renewed strength during times like these. It’s possible. I can do this. YOU ALL can do this. We can do it this, everyone!!
Happy thoughts for anyone who drops by to read this. May strength be lent to you if you so need it today.
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