Please do give it a few shots that program saved my life and the lives of many other people i know.
looks like you (and I) could use, and are ready for some help and it’s available in this free program of recovery but do the work
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Frightening consequences weren’t enough to get me sober. They did beat me into a state of willingness, and that was enough to get me to hear that there is another way, that things will be okay when I stopped drinking.
I know today that the essential event for almost all of us is not necessarily that extreme consequence, the hospital stay or the divorce or the firing or the jail time. To get sober and stay sober, I had to become convinced, even for one day, that there was a different, if not better, way to live. I wasn’t always convinced that sobriety would equate to bliss, the way I wanted my drunkenness to equate to bliss. But I was convinced that I could not take even one more drink, and I had to have a plan and take action to make that happen. Up to this day, if I do not do something about my alcoholism every day, it will do something about me.
To get and stay sober, I started with getting arrested and released on conditions of proving my sobriety with a breath test every single morning until my trial date. That took 5 months to come to a plea deal. Then, the day after the arrest, I called my doctor to get back on Antabuse, and called my drug and alcohol counselor to resume with her. I actually complied with the conditions of my release, not driving and not trying to game the system to be able to drink and still blow .000 in the morning. I was honest with my counselor and took my medicine every morning, while my resolve was high. After about 30 days, I went back to AA, and this time around I did what was suggested. I got a sponsor at my second meeting back and did what he told me to do, because he knew (and still does) how to stay sober, and I did not.
I threw all my efforts into sobriety. You can use those lost 10 days as your motivation to throw all your efforts into sobriety. If we only do what feels comfortable, we will not change. And if we do not change, we will drink. The AA book tells me “with us, to drink is to die”.
Blessings on your house 
as you begin your journey.
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This brought tears to my eyes. Thank you for sharing your story. Wow, I don’t even know what to say to this. Im proud of you. Yesterday it got really rough at the end of the night, I wanted to give in. I ended up just going to sleep (at least trying to). I had to take heavy sleeping meds my wife is prescribed. It knocked me out. I woke up today feeling 20x better. Hopefully I can make it through
This is day 2 and a half for me. I was sober for 3 months prior…. I know I got this. Sleep is going to be my best friend.
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This really hit home. The pics killed my craving. For that I offer my sincere gratitude