Thank you for sharing this beautifully written personal experience of yours! It resonated with me…when I was in the depths of my addiction (drinking until I could feel no more emotional pain), I neglected my self-care/hygiene. I would also avoid the mirror so that I didn’t see that “ugly” woman who hadn’t washed her hair or body for days. I have realized that I AM worthy of love. I’m getting it from the number one person I always needed it from….Myself. 
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I’m glad it resonated with you!
The mirror was the bane of my existence for a long time, my bathroom in general was very hard for me to enter without feeling shame. Now, even with adult acne and some extra weight around my hips and belly I wouldn’t mind losing, I don’t feel that shame anymore, I just see me, imperfect and perfect at the same time!
I’m so happy for you Nina, and thank you for your support! 
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Thank you for sharing @Alexh666 Alex, this is a powerful post 
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Glad to share! There is power in being able to bear my struggles and be heard by others who feel the same!
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This is such a beautiful and important message. Thank you. I’m so glad that you are able to take steps for yourself now. Recovery can be circular, linear or look like a something a spider might draw with inky feet. And you know what, it’s no one’s fucking business what it looks like. 
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Thank you! I’m glad as well!
Agree agree agree! 
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This gave me goosebumps!! I used to think it was just me who lacked self care when in active addiction, silly, I know. I used to neglect myself to the core and could never look in a mirror, I used to think I was gross and felt there was no way out, until there was. Appreciate this very strong and emotional share with us 
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I can relate to the lack of self care and yes it is definitely a blessing to be in recovery and to start doing those things that promote health and healing!! I’m still pretty new to sobriety but I have a couple weeks and a sponsor and homegroup and I moved into a sober living house on my clean date which is Christmas eve! I appreciate your post, it was right on man!
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I thought the same thing, we were silly together!!
Glad to share the reality of my experience, it helps me remember how far I’ve come! 
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OMG yeah! Mirrors were the bane of my life!
Just had a kind of flash back there [cw: injury description/blackout experience] to a time that I woke up to my flat being covered in blood having punched a mirror out because I couldn’t bear to look at myself - didn’t even remember doing it had to piece it together like a drunken detective - bad times 
But you’re right, sometimes the grind of looking after myself gets to me tbh - but actually I’m really grateful to myself for taking the time and effort to do it nowadays! Including going to the dentist!
And I don’t hate the person in the mirror anymore!!
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Congrats on getting past two weeks! Those are some difficult days for sure! Glad you’re here, TS is a great place to find support and resources!
Sounds like you are making some really good forward movement towards a sober life, I’m very happy for you! Looking forward to seeing more about your sober journey! Please don’t hesitate to reach out if you need support! 
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Yikes! Sounds rough, I can certainly relate to the “drunken detective” idea, I had to piece together so many shitty things I did on nights I was blacked out, I never solved most of them unfortunately! 
Self care is definitely something you have to constantly work towards, but that work is worth it!
Glad to hear you don’t hate who you see in the mirror anymore, that’s comforting to know I’m not alone!
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