I feel like no one gives a f. I’ve been tweaking all morning after failing a half assed attempt at soberity and I woke up choking twice and I think I might need to go to the hospital so I don’t choke in my sleep but I can’t afford it and it would cause so much issues in this house if anyone knew. I’ve been setting an alarm for every 8 minutes and laying on my side and supporting my head in case I fall asleep. I feel like I can’t be helped and idk if I came to the right place after all. I’m not 100% sure if I belong here because I don’t know if I want to be sober. I don’t know where else to go.
I care. I know I cannot be there with you in person, However, I care. I understand that struggle. I am going through a similar lifestyle/feeling. It’s like I’m drowing in my own thoughts and whenever I try to speak up, people only try to knock me down to their level.
I suggest going to free counselling that the government provides. I cannot offer much support but these words. I know you want to change now you just need to find real help.
I’m here if you wanna talk.
I have no one, I don’t have anyone supportive in my life
I’ll look into therapy, I just got AmeriHealth and my card will be coming in the mail soon. Thank you for your kind words
Thank you, this is so hard. I can’t stop getting sick and I’m going through so many water bottles
The only thing you can do is go through those withdrawals the best you can. It’s going to be hard and stresful but in the end it will be worth it.
@GooseSnowCone i want you to know that u are not alone. i am feeling those same feelings of no one caring and not wanting anyone to know how i feel because i think it will cause more problems to see someone else stress over my issues. u speaking up alone is enough to tell urself that u want to make a change the prt that’s got u in the fence is that you think its too hard to go through the withdrawal or that u know those feelings will go away when u use! i care and there is a lot of other people in your shoes that feel just as alone i find things are fine when i talk about the issues but its when u step outside of that conversation or when u get back to ur reality that u still struggle words can be just that words untill you find a way to put them to use and let them be a tool for you
im here of u want to talk…
from one suffering soul to another
Thank you so much
According to a friend who was a hospital admistrator, no one can be denied medcal care based on an inability to pay for services. Hospitals are ethically, not to mention morally, bond to treat you.
But they’ll still bill me and I have no way of paying. My new insurance card won’t come in for 7-14 business days. The last time I went to the hospital was on suicide watch in March and I kept telling them I couldn’t afford it and I had no insurance. I was scared to be there. They didn’t say anything about payment options or billing during my stay and discharge. They sent a debt collector after me last month and I owe $1,400 for seeing a crisis counselor. I can only make minimum payments of $25 but my egg donor is going to have to do it on my behalf.
I’m going to be brutal here. You are in active addiction and everything you see is through the fog of your DOC. The best thing you can do is get yourself to a detox center. The closest one to me has medical staff 24 hours a day to treat you as you detox. My understanding is if you are seen while you are in active use they can’t turn you away. That’s not to say that they don’t try to get paid for their services. Let’s be honest you are here and need help. This is me helping you. But if you are tired of living in all that pain there is hope for you. Quit trying to justify your use by not being able to afford help. Seek the help you need and get healthy. Those dollars going to your DOC will add up later and then you can face financial amends.
We all care and you are here for a reason. But if you can’t handle the side effect go get detox. Im an alcoholic i might not have the same withdrawals but i can assure you that i am getting them. Take care