ODAAT2 Breaking the cycle Journal

HONK, HONK! Here comes the struggle bus!
Day 15 and all I want is a glass of wine. I drove past every stop along the way. Didn’t talk myself into allowing just one, but its early yet. Argh…

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The struggle is real. Congrats on 15 days of recovery, keep being great

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Similar experience last night. I genuinely did not trust myself to go to the shops. I had to stay indoors and order a takeaway. It wasn’t the healthy eating I had planned but I didn’t drink so I will take that. I did have to say out loud “No - you do NOT have permission to drink” quite a few times during the evening. My son called in the evening and I spoke about it. He said the next time I am in that situation to phone him and he would stay on the line with me the whole shop until I got safely back in the car.

I did think that I can’t face struggling like this for the rest of my life. Got on an online meeting and one of the shares had the message that every time we conquer these overwhelming cravings, we get stronger and the addict voice gets quieter. I bloody hope so!

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Congrats on beating the urge and also for having an amazing son. Stay strong and enjoy your weekend. :muscle:

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I hope you were able to put your head, to your pillow sober last night and you are waking up Hangover free.

I had to fight my alcohol demon yesterday too ( finally the weekend demon) I just kept remembering myself, i worked so hard to get here. And it will not be just one, it will be multiple drinks, multiple days and so on.

I can say it easier to say nope, not happening. To my alcohol demon then it was at the beginning of my journey.

Stay :muscle:, you got this! Kick that demon butt!

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Thank you for sharing this. I really like your advice that the longer we stay sober, the more quiet the drinking voice will get. Mine was screaming, but I made it thru.

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I was! Thank you for the words of encouragement.

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Better to be driving the struggle bus than under it! Good work staying strong, it does get easier on the day to day.

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Great motto! Tshirt and coffee mugs would be perfect.

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@ODAAT2 can be scary but the good news here is that your body is trying to reset. You’re cleaning up all your temple. Well done! 12 days!! Keep going … We are here to support you❤️

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