Man its crazy to kill yourself with drugs and booze, thinking about alien life is just thinking. We all have our view points and beliefs, also you can think about something and not belive it exist at the same time.
Got an idea from a post
If alchohol gets in the way of your life ditch it , if aliens get in the way ditch em too.
Sci fi shows books and stuff help me but i liked sci fi before i needed help so it should be a source of positive vibes thinking and stuff.