What an achievement my friend!! 
Proud of you dear! 
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I can really relate, I fought that constantly it seemed early in recovery and still do occasionally. I tell myself “that’s not who I am today, I’ll not get any real relief from thinking like that”
Congratulations on progress and self discovery!
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Congrats dear!! You work so hard! not afraid to deep dive in the shadows. You are an inspiration
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Congratulations girl. Your struggles have resonated and your growth is inspiring. Your presence here is appreciated and I’m so proud of you. 
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In honour of your 100 days, your honesty, your courage, your openness, your compassion for others and yourself, and in gratitude for sharing your journey with all of us here…
…not my best work, but a snow angel for you!
Of course the best snow was in plain sight of my wee home and my neighbours’ windows and balconies. And I forgot how hard it is to get out of a snow angel! I can only imagine it looked a bit like someone’s back on the bottle! 
Congrats, lovely. Looking forward to sharing more days on this journey with you. 
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I’ve actually been waiting for this. But I wanted to see you doing it 
. What? Scout couldn’t take your pic?
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The dog girl? Her distinct lack of opposable thumbs makes it, er, awkward, for her to hold a phone!
But I can assure you she is 100% into Olivia’s milestone, (anyone’s milestone TBH), pending celebratory treats!
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This is f***ing awesome M!! You said you were gonna do it and you did. Thank you for sharing, you made my day. I wish we could see video, especially the part where you’re trying to get up without wrecking your beautiful art work. 
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I could put it out there on my twitter account and I bet it would go viral. 
@M-be-free49
@Lisa07
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Thank you Lisa and @Dazercat!
I’m not gonna lie. It was pretty f*cking hard to get up! Especially without wrecking it and making it look less like a snow angel and more like the print left behind by, say, a baby wildebeest (or similar awkward, uncoordinated creature) that had a bad landing after being air dropped from a chopper…
I’d have paid dearly for one of you (even if laughing at/with me) to be there to help, but I’m a little bit glad it’s not on video. Probably looks like I need an intervention followed by a good long stretch at finishing school.
And our Olivia is worth every bit of it!
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I would have been laughing too hard to hold the camera steady while peeing my pants.
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Wow, alot to take in their Olivia
Being totally transparent here I had to Google what PMO was,
But i talked to you in the zoom group essentially being introduced to you for the first time, and your a total blast to be around,
I get the background, dealing with emotionally unavailable parents and being the brunt of your peers. I been there.
But wow, just chatting and getting to know you and your personality your a phenomenal person, dont listen to the negative thoughts and feedback. They are obviously clueless
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That’s so pretty, thank you Emm!!! 
And yes, I how hard it is get up again from the snow. How did we pull it off so gracefully as kids is beyond me!
@Dazercat I vote for a selfie stick for Emm! Or a selfie tripod. Whatever would inspire her to post more selfies on the forum 
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Thank you for your acknowledgement Chris. It means a lot me. This forum has and still is helping me shake off insecurities about myself. It’s so fun to meet new people, like you.
I guess you found out that in this context PMO stands for porn, masturbation, orgasm. I’m Canada it means Prime Minister’s Office, I’ve learnt. That would put a whole different spin on things, wouldn’t it, Emm? @M-be-free49
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No matter what anyone tells you, everyone, including you are all beautiful in their own way. Just because guys call you unattractive or unlovable or bully you doesn’t mean that’s who you are. I was bullied the same way you were and I still struggle with self esteem issues and I’ve been in a relationship for 2 years now still sometimes feeling like I’m not attractive enough for my fiancee. You just gotta tap into your inner self and find that beautiful person you know is there but don’t want to admit is there because of your flaws. Anyone can fuck up, anyone can feel bad. You aren’t alone and many people like me, male or female have gone through the same struggle. Pornography destroyed my parents marriage through excessive viewing by my father who got himself addicted to masturbation and alcohol when my mother was not home which quickly spiraled into something worse and then them divorcing when I turned 16, plus high school for me was hell because people liked to torment me for being autistic and having ADHD to the point I hated myself and the way I looked. Never give up on yourself, you are worth it Olivia
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How lovely! 
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Thank you for sharing your story. I’m sorry you’ve had to deal with so much shit too. From your pics I see a happy little family and that’s so beautiful
And thank you for your kind words. They’re meaningful to me.
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