Checking in day 224 AF 
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Day 41 and I’ve hit the “always crying and I hate everyone” phase. C’mon, dopamine, give me just a little!!!
I’m eating mostly healthy, exercising 4-5 days/week, started back on training for a fall run (just means Im adding a mile or so a week, and I’m slow AF). I’m praying, trying to meditate. I’m only indulging in Ben and Jerry therapy once a week fun fact - the pint fits in a Koozie I’m journaling, seeking sober support from sober friends.
I know this too shall pass but I also want it to pass RIGHT NOW 
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@Runswith4dogs I don’t know where you’re based, but: would you be able to be out in the sun a bit more? It’s not quite dopamine but it certainly makes me a lot happier and I hope it would you too! 
@Dirk I’m in Louisiana so depending on the day, sunshine is pleasant or its trying to unalive us all I think I’ll spend lunch outsode tomorrow, since it’s supposed to be under 100°
I will keep my fingers crossed for milder weather tomorrow!
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Thanks for the post, how are you getting on now @Runswith4dogs
I was heavy drinker at home and at bars for 20+ years but the last 9 months cut down to 2 maybe 3 nights per week just at home, but Id binge.
having now seen lots of info, Binging is just as bad as full term blown outs, so Im hoping this PAWS is caused by that.
Im on 36 days and doing the same excersise and mindfulness wise, breathing and meditation, I find it really helps the dopamine as well as a cold shower 30 mins after excersise gives me an extra boost, then even random cold showers take the edge off.
I sat crying yesterday that Im a let down to everyone around me, and again feel
guilt
Im an embarrassment
Crying
No good to anyone
None of the above things are true, I have a successful company and many great staff who we all have a good relationship, so why these thoughts come out is beyond me
Anxious as hell
and zero motivation to get the exersise in again (though I almost always do it)
the little voices in your head shouting just get back in bed, HAVE to be overcome.
Good idea on the “ben and jerry” therapy, I can afford that now as Ive lost 50lbs.
Tick tock tick tock to when the anxiety lifts for me, thats the main issue I have
good luck hope your doing ok
Hi @Landoboguy welcome to ts and congrats on your 36 days . Hope your ok ,It’s very normal to have the emotions your having and the anxiety will get better with time we’re all healing together on here “sometimes quickly sometimes slowly it will always materialise if we work for it“ keep it in the day don’t think too far ahead or allow your addict head get to you. be kind to yourself and proud of yourself .we recover one day at a time
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