That happened to me too. It gets better with time. It’s good to cry…get that shit out.
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it’s the first drink that always tears me down, I crave now and then but just pray to God to take away my desire to drink talk to someone who knows about alcoholism who can encourage not to use, stay strong if you throw away your 40 days you’ll just have to start back at step 1 all over again I’m guilty for falling back so many times before but now I’m finding the strength to hold onto what I have and take it 24hrs at a time and that is working for me now. Pour that shit down the drain you dont need that poison
Thank you. Talking to everyone helped me find the strength to get through that moment. I’m still hanging in there.
While most days are easy, there are moments that are difficult. I can’t have even one drink or I will fall back into a very dangerous cycle.
One day at a time
Thank you for the encouragement
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I had a rough day had a few deaths in the family being away from home working, being in a separation with my wife, feeling alone with the holiday I thought about how good it would be to taste a drink just one i lied to myself that maybe i could but realized the grim reminder that i am an alcoholic and that thought could lead to my demise. I kept strong and resisted the urge to get sh*t faced and how great it is to just be sober and alive today
I’m having a pity party and I’m just sulking in my sorrows I need help to get through this I’m already broken down
I am so sorry. You must be absolutely heartbroken. You have one of two options here. Work together (emphasis on together!) to find the root of the problem in order to solve it (seeking outside help is probably the first place to start), or cut your losses and begin the healing process. Neither option is the wrong one, and neither is easy. Whichever you decide, don’t bottle your feelings up. Speak to a friend, a relative, a therapist, a support group, your sponsor… Whomever. You’ve got to feel what you’re feeling all the way through in order to get past it, and don’t do it alone. Nothing can change what already is, but you are now responsible for and in control of what is to become. Wishing you a mended heart. Big hugs to you.
think thats my problem bottling up my anger and fears and when they do come to the surface I blow up and things get ugly quickly. it’s wrong to think I can deal with it myself I just been isolating myself and depressed sleeping too much and self loathing.