Hey all so I’m a good few weeks into my sobriety been a good girl and not drinking anymore. It’s 11 weeks on sat since my last pull of a beer. Sometimes I feel proud of myself sometimes I don’t it’s all about the mind set. I’m a pretty stubborn person if I wanna do something I will so even tho there are times I get arsed off when I hear excuses used by people for slipping I can see why they would. My wife was trying to cut down in chocolate having a bar everyother day, yesterday a non choc day she sneaked one, I caught her eating it in the kitchen and she said this to me…it’s only one, you don’t understand its hard for me when I get it in my head I can’t get it out and I have to do it, I’ve been so down today it’s the only thing that makes me happy gives me that relief!..I got mad very fast about this I said…fine I’m gonna drink tonight cos I’m struggling and it’s been popping into my head a few times over last few days how I’m fancying a night out and a few pints to get drunk…how bloody dare she say I didn’t understand I was fuming I almost burst into tears…she finished off by saying it’s not the same as mine iv got an addiction and I’m in recovery…even tho she can’t stop and has a total sugar addict.
I’m so happy I have this will inside me that wont let me be beat because I really could of done last night and I almost did but then instead I wrote down how I felt and what happend that gave me time to think straight and say sorry for my out burst…upon reflection I should of made of joke of it I usually do but I didn’t n I ended up upsetting both of us. Tho I won’t take all responsabilitie for it cos it was stupid what she said to me…I know the topic name has nothing to do with what I wrote but I think it sounds nice.