I use to be the guy that couldn’t go three days without relapsing all through January 2025 I was relapsing like crazy but see how my higher power has sent me free on all cases I use to struggle with I tried it my way it didn’t work so I decided to try it in anyway I can I gave up self to pursue a higher power greater than myself and I find it, I’m living proof that if my higher can set this guy that use to relapsing once or twice or thrice in a week if he can set me free then he can for anyone
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Hey there,
I’m now sober for more than 3 months, getting closer to my personal best (about 10 months) day by day.
I feel a lot better, knowing that there IS a way without porn. But I must not become complacent and think I’m “healed”. It probably won’t ever leave. Explicit images or videos are burned into my mind and try to find their way back and ruin me again.
Some days my mind tells me to “have a quick peek” which triggers my curiosity. Thankfully I have been able to resist and plan on doing so for the rest of my life.
Staying off of this nasty stuff has helped me become a lot calmer and less impulsive. Still, I need to remind myself everyday what could (or will) happen if I give in. As my nickname suggests, I don’t want to relapse ever again.
About the latest discussion, I have this to say:
“Live and let live” and please don’t be offended when someone shares ideas or opinions that you personally can’t identify with. We’re all here to help each other and I’m glad to have found this forum. I check in everyday and I’m proud to be a part of it.
Keep on going strong, people!
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Day 0 to Porn and Masturbation.
Day 1 sober from masturbation…
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Day 2 sober from masturbation
so I had a dream about sex but I was able to pray to my higher power against such thought and it subsided I’m happy.
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Always pray
Leah
You’re not alone and if you need support I have two nonjudgmental ears to hear you if you need that support. One day at a time
Day 2 sober from masturbation
I woke up in the middle of the night touching myself nothing led to it which was shocking and I didn’t go to my phone, no dating apps, no social media, no porn absolutely nothing and then I remember my addiction strike at Day 3, Day 5, Day 7, Day 9, Day 11, Day 15 and then it leaves me..
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Day 3 sober from masturbation
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The work is anything I do intentionally toward my sobriety journey. It’s a bit different for everyone, but for me meditation has been a massive help. I’ve gained a much better understanding of the “why’s” behind my actions and a strong self-awarenwss, which has saved me from messing up in more ways than I can count. Not just slips or set-backs in my sobriety, but being self aware has kept me out of ridiculous arguments, helped me choose better in my diet, kept me from saying things I’d regret to family, friends, workmate’s, bosses, and even strangers … ultimately, being aware helps me not do the stupid crap that ends up leading to a ‘need’ to act out.
I also read, and not just books and articles about addiction, but reading most anything that helps grow my mind.
Coming back regularly to this app, even if sometimes I only read and catch up on what other members have written.
Therapy is a big one for me. I experienced a ton of trauma growing up, and working through it has been a real eye opener and has helped me understand my addiction at a level I otherwise never could.
All of this and so much more add up to “the work”.
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Day 4 sober from masturbation
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Day 5 sober from masturbation