Porn Addiction Recovery


#184

That is such an awesome tip Pirate! Tonight I am editing a video and it’s pretty late - past 12am. Of course I am tempted like mad to do porn but I am praying I thought to check in here on Sobertime! I am 6 days clean and I want to make 7.

One little relapse is all it takes to make me feel down in the dumps.
I experience that when I am free from Porn I have more boldness, more creativity, more energy at work, more purpose in my life. When I do porn I feel like - “Ahh $#1t - Why did I do that again?! Everything is $#1t! My job is $#1t! I’m $#1t!..”

If I keep away from porn I become happy, I become a man of God and I can resist temptations. This week I saw a client for my business. She was extremely attractive and it was just me and her in her office. I was tempted to lust after her, but I started to pray and be as professional as possible. She was so happy with my presentation and my design was approved. She wanted to pay the invoice as soon as possible so we could start on the project. I felt so good about it when I walked out of her office and said goodbye that I didn’t lust after her. On the road, in the car, multiple lustful tempting thoughts about what could have been popped into my head - I resisted them and prayed. The thoughts were so strong! I prayed until they went away. I could think clearly again! I felt peace that I did not lust after her.

When I got home I told my housemate about it.
As I was talking, it became so serious for me! Imagine I had touched this lady or something happened and I slept with her for example. My life would have been destroyed! She is divorced and currently has a boyfriend. The consequences would have been:

  1. Her current boyfriend would kill me
  2. Her former husband would kill me (as they are still on good terms)
  3. She has 2 children
  4. I could get a disease (if she happened to have one)
  5. If she got pregnant I would be in serious trouble
  6. She is a lawyer and could use that against me
  7. Number one with the bullet is •I would have sinned against God, I cannot hide from Him!

So we see that this type of destructive thinking can ruin us!
Why play with it any longer?!

Pray for me that I may stay faithful. I am in this battle just as much as all of you!
6 days is not much, but it it one day closer to a week!
May God give me grace!


#185

In addition to that, I find that all those ridiculous fantasies are just that, fake. The scenarios my brain makes up are so improbable that it’s nuts.

6 days is huge. Don’t discredit yourself.


#186

Im struggling with pornography as well, in fact i just had a relapse today and i really hate myself for it.

I saw your post and thought id share my story. Maybe we can help each other out.

I was first introduced to porn when i was 12, my freind showed me some pornographic videos and magazines. From there i learned to masterbate from some of my other friends. Before i knew it i was looking at porn and masterbating 2-5 times a day. I started getting better when i got to community college. Back then i had a burning desire to be free, to turn away from sin and follow God. I could last 1-2 weeks at a time back then. Later in University, i got to a point where i lasted around 2 months!! Longest i ever lasted in my life.

After graduation, however, ive been getting worse, i cant even last 4 days anymore… its hard to turn away from this sin, my body craves it too much at this point.

This is the hardest thing ive ever had to give up.
But i know God loves us and wants us to succeed. Ill be praying for us all, pray for me too.


#187

Welcome to the forum. Theres a lot of help you can find here. Stick around. When you’re feeling tempted, get on the forums and talk to us.


#188

Thanks, i appreciate it, i will! :smiley:


#189

Hey. I’m addicted to pornography, and have been so for about 4-5 years. And I’m just 15 years old. First I didn’t understand that it was bad for me, so I didn’t try to stop. But then I realised how bad it is, and have been trying to stop for maybe 3 years. I wanna stop so bad! There are so many things that I don’t feel comfortable doing, because my mind is not healthy, because of porn. It is soo unhealthy for pretty much everything.
Now, I actually haven’t made much progress. There has been a couple of times that I was without, for about a week. But other than that, I mostly can not stand even a day without. Right now it’s 14 hours since I watched porn. But now I wanna make improvements! So I think it’ll be easier if I put the word out somewhere/to someone. Now I will try to be sober for one week! And I’m determined. If I fail, I’ll post it here. If I succeed, I’ll also post it here :slight_smile: Wish me luck :slight_smile:


#190

@Twowaymirror @MikeSeekingHope @Cgty04 @pirate and others can all attest that this addiction will ruin you. I’ve been in its grips for over 13 years. It is a progressive disease and will not improve, but only get worse without care.

You are fortunate to recognize you have a problem at such a young age. Stay here. I don’t have the time to elaborate more on the subject. I’ll be back online later.


#191

Thank you so much for responding! I was kinda thinking that nobody would respond. And yes I know it ruins people. It’s kinda ruined me. It’s tough. It’s hard, when you knlw how effing bad it is for you, but you can’t stand not watching.
Also, I believe in you. I believe you can get out of it. You have my faith.


#192

Thanks, Liam. There are a lot of Sex/Porn/Masturbation Addicts on here. The forum gets slow sometimes. Dont feel like you’re ignored. People probably dont use the chat as much as it was intended. I haven’t checked it for a couple months. Stick with us here. I hope that reading through our stories will help you understand more about addiction.

In addition to the forum, I wonder if your parents/guardians know of your struggles? A school counselor? You need more help than self-will. You need outside support.


#193

Hi @Liam8, Rob is giving you good advice. I’m not sure about talking to your parents, that is your call. My parents found out about my porn usage when I was your age. I was punished. And it only made me get better at hiding it. You know yourself and your parents better than we do. But I agree you need some outside support.

Proud of you for recognizing you have a problem. I had no idea I was an addict when I was your age, even though I had been for years. I have complete confidence you will be able to make it one week. It’s at that point that you will need to remain vigilant. You will probably feel like you’ve got this thing figured out. You won’t feel an uncontrollable urge, but you may think to yourself, “I feel like just going and looking at porn, o don’t feel like I have to though.” I’ve been there many times. It’s a trap the addiction sets to keep us using, to bring us down when we feel like we’re in control.

Hope the rest of your day went well. Hang in there.


#194

Thanks for the support. I will stick to the forum here, it’s interesting and helpful to read others stories. And writing here myself has motivated me more to getting rid of my addiction.
I often generally feel like my capabilities/knowledge is taken for granted for my age tho. I’m sure you didn’t mean to do that with your comment. But I’m just saying. I actually would say I know a fare amount about my addiction. It (and other stuff in my life) has actually led to me growing up more I think, since I would consider myself a thinker, which I think leads to understanding more stuff than I would if I wouldn’t be a thinker.
And no, my parents do not know about my addiction, I don’t know that they know of it at least. My sister (who is 24) do however. And she’s been helping me. A friend of mine also knows.


#195

Thank you! This was helpful! As I said in the response to Robs message, my sister and a friend knows about it. (You can read a little more about that there)
Thanks for believing in me!
And the trap, thanks for warning me!


#196

An addicition is an addicition.
As long as you don’t let the stigma of what your affection is control every aspect of your life you will conquer it. One just has has to focus their drive and passion into recovery. It won’t be a quick trip down the road. It is a journey that may seem incomprehensible to most people. As long as you stay driven and focused on what you want to achieve it will get done.


#197

So, I’ve got some bad news… Earlier this week I said I was gonna try to not watch porn for one week. Well… I did a lot of things, both yesterday, and today, I haven’t seen my friends for a while, and I guess I felt kinda lonely. I watched porn. I failed. I didn’t watch porn for about 3 days tho, that is also an improvement. But I will try to not watch porn for a week again! Thanks for the people responding to my earlier posts. I might have been kinda rude to Rob there, and seemed like I think I know everything and don’t want anyone’s help. Well I didn’t mean that. Sorry if it seemed like so. I definitely appreciate the support, and any tips on fighting addiction.


#198

I dont remember that. It’s hard to offend me. Being offended is a choice. I choose not to. 3 days is huge. Double it next time!


#199

One day at a time friend. We all need a reminder to stay humble now and then.


#200

I understand you. First time I was caught by this damned thing was with 7 years old I am 42. You are not alone


#201

I like to use this app kind of like a video game (I’m also a video game addict, it’s a thing, there’s DOZENS of us). Each goal is kind of a level up. I can earn badges and rank up the more I read and post. It is probably the most healthy video game out there for me! Each day is a new level and I get rewarded with the feeling of accomplishment and sobriety. It helps me to stay sober because I really want to “win” at sobriety. Really there’s no greater reward than getting my life back.


#202

day 3 of porn addiction recovery…feeling good today…


#203

Nice. Keep it going! Stay vigilant!