Hello guys, I don’t really know this all to well or how to express myself but here I go.
Ever since 2019 I’ve been smoking almost nonstop. I started because i have very severe depression and would hear voices in my head saying horrible things and making me feel awful about myself. To make things worse my father and mother seperated a couple months after I started, which just made me crave the devils lettuce even more. When ever I got money, I would buy weed, every dollar I was making was going to that. I would even go through great lengths to tell my parents I was going to work but I was really going to smoke with my buddies. Making up lies constantly to get high. It got so bad I would just forget what were lies and what was the truth when i would talk to my parents. Then when my mom found out she was furious, it was at the begging of the summer and she took me and my siblings out to utah, I was sober in utah more 3 months untill I got back. Almost within a week I was back smoking. Since then I’ve been smoking and keeping up the same problems. Just making my life harder and harder. My grades were depleted and it looked like I wasn’t going to have much of a future. Recently my mom drug tested me and found out I was smoking again, horrified by how disappointed I made my mom I promised to her I would smoke smoking indefinitely. I also recently talked to my religious leader and made a plan with him yo get sober. I feel like I can get sober and if I can then I think so can you.
God bless you all
I was a heavy smoker as a teen, it is a dangerous road I almost didn’t graduate high school, it’s in the first part of my story in my thread.
I had to double down efforts and get a new circle of friends my pothead buddies weren’t my friends, they just enjoyed the party, it wasn’t easy but it was doable,
Years later I tried smoking pot, I can’t it gives me so much anxiety and paranoia that I can’t fathom doing it.
Your young ditch the devils lettuce now, the future is bright
ETA my potsmoking buddies now, some are dead, others in jail, and none of them have high school diplomas, can’t land a job. Have nothing to show for their lives. They still party, we are all late 30s early 40s. By this time most people are well into their career and families. They just have the weed, and other drugs on their mind