I recently was listening to a song on the radio (posted below) and had a thought. What if we viewed our Addictions as an actual entity. Not like you’re possessed with a demon, but viewing it as if it were another being separate from yourself that follows you around. Something that you interact with negatively. You fight with it, but you also have a bond with it emotionally. You feel comforted to have it around, but then resent it for what it makes you do for it. But, it doesn’t have those same feeling for you. You can feel it behind you. The hatred is palpable. The creature wants to miserable, it wants you to suffer, it wants to rule you. It wants you dead.
Seeing it through these lenses make it alive. It’s a parasite. It lives off of you, feeding off your life force, slowly bleeding you dry. There’s a dark secret that it keeps, hidden so subtly that you don’t realize the truth behind this being. The secret is that it is alive.
I love this idea. It sort of reminds me of the old cymbalta commercials where depression was a bathrobe following the woman around… like she could still be happy, but it’s still there, lurking. That’s been pretty much all of the issues in my life… depression, anxiety, addiction…
I think mine would be a shadow.it is at its worst when I’m encountering something heavy and bright and hard and hard to deal with. But it totally cant exist without me.
he who fights with monsters might take care lest he therby become a monster. And if you gaze for long into an abyss, the abyss gazes back. Friedrich Nietzsche
Was there a reference to it ? I reread the original post and I’m not sure why it made me sing that song. Then I saw your post and thought wait, lol what am I missing.
