So today is the day I finally give in to both.
I started smoking at 13 and carried on all the way up to being 30. Then switched to vaping. Bad idea. My little addictive head loved that even more, down to the tinkering with my vape, and customising it to how I wanted it. Obviously it had to be perfect because my head wouldn’t allow anything else
When I gave up alcohol 13 months ago I soon realised I am as much a slave to nicotine as I was with alcohol. I’d panic if it was dying, the juice was low, I’d forgotten it, couldn’t find the charger etc etc. It was affecting my everyday life so I knew it had to go. The only problem is with vaping, such little is known about it healthwise. So you automatically assume because it isn’t tobacco its okay.
So I’ve started this thread. I threw all my vaping stuff away yesterday and bought my first packet of real smokes in nearly 4 years for my final day smoking. Guess what!? Just like stopping drinking within an hour I was back to lighting up without thinking about it, no cough, just that fake nicotine high. My clothes stunk, as did my breath, my van and outside my house. Fuck that.
I’m going to use this thread as a diary to hold myself responsible. Any tips, ideas or words of encouragement would be more than welcome. I feel I’m ready to do this.
Here’s to day 1. Or the first 5 mins