I hate feeling hungover. Stayed up late and drank too much again. Not a very attractive look for a wife and mother of two. I’m disappointed in myself, again. I’ve really got to end this cycle of pain. But, When will it finally stick.
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Im on day 3 after starting over for what feels like the hundredth time but being active on here and getting support from others- reading the information and plans has helped already compared to all the times I’ve done it alone.
Your not alone
Knowing you want to change is a big step in itself.
Be gentle with yourself- this first part is the hardest but I’m with you just trying to stay sober one day at a time.
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Not to be insensitive, but I read your post a few times. It reminds me of what we’ve all said a million times when we wake up feeling like shit. While we recover from the hangover we say to ourselves “I’m never drinking again”. We know how that turns out.
One thing I didn’t read was that you are going make an effort to stop drinking. Do you have a plan?
I wish you all the best.
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Thank you! Best of luck to you too. It is helpful to talk with others who are going through the same thing.
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Hello,
I always have a plan, it’s just sticking to it that I struggle with. Mocktails, working out, not buying the stuff in the first place. There are so many triggers for me. I lack the willpower, obviously. I’m always open to advice.
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Welcome Rachel 
Willpower is not enough. Staying sober is one thing, easy, just don’t pick up the first drink. Recovery is work, daily, looking behind what you are escaping from, learning healthy tools and coping with life strategies, sitting with your feelings, processing what’s going on inside you.
Read around, there are many ressources fir recivery abd a brilliant what’s your plan thread. Engage in therapy, a recovery program, get medical help, go to a rehab, read quit lit, listen to recovery podcasts, learn about how addiction works. Connection is the opposite of addiction. Stay connected, post here on your thread, check in on the daily check in thread, establish a gratitude routine, also a great thread.
You are not alone. Always keep coming back here. Never crave alone. ODAAT
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Willpower only takes you so far. I think surrender is more apt. I know that if I have one drink, I will rarely stop at one. And if I do stop at one, the next night I won’t. I drink too much because I’m an alcoholic and the secret to being a sober alcoholic is to avoid that first drink. Sorry if this sounds cryptic but it is both as hard and as easy as I’ve put it here. Welcome! Plenty of good content on here. Spend some time here the next time you are feeling triggered.
Everyone has had a day one here. Make a plan to make it your last day one.
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Have you been to any support groups? AA meetings are a great place to find support and accountability. I don’t think I could have made it 6+ years on my own in recovery… I know of very few people whom can maintain sobriety as addicts / alcoholics without support.
I would really give that a shot. Good luck, friend 
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As suggested try a meeting they will help wish u well
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I have been to AA. I need to fine a group of people who are not only sober but active. I’m going to start looking.
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I understand my home group is not the same way I am I am very healthy and active and they like to eat and sit and talk but the bottom line is that they support my recovery and they are there for me when I need them so don’t be too picky if it works for me it’ll work for you sometimes we can’t have it exactly our way.
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Groups ive been to have walking clubs and they go to ten pin bowling meet for coffees plenty of AA members have outside interest , at xmas and newyear we have parties , when u find that group keep us informed
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Day two again. The cycle continues. And like clockwork on a Sunday afternoon around 3 oclock I think to myself, a nice cold drink would be nice. Bat shit crazy…. I’m literally hangover think “yeah more poison seems like the cure”. Made myself a mocktail and sat outside with my husband and Dog. One more day god just give me one more day.
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Proud of you for not picking up alcohol. Put your head down sober tonight with us. Just for tonight. Tomorrow we deal with tomorrow.
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@Rachel1 Hang in there! We are here to support you. Just continue to take it day by day.
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Maybe try ameeting might help
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But the key here is that you identified the trigger and you avoided giving into it.
You should be patting yourself on the back feeling good!
Nice work!
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Woke up this morning feeling better. I slept beside my 10 year old daughter last night because she asked me to. If she only knew the struggles. I got up at 5:30 and finished an essay paper from my Criminal Justice Degree. I only have a month before I go back to school as a 3rd grade teacher and I’m bound to do it sober. It’s all mental really. I’ve been to A A meetings but honestly they depress me, no offense to anyone. I seek nature and sober friends to aid me. It is up to me to change not anyone else. PERIOD. One more day God just give me one more Day.
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You could always make a rule that if you ever feel like you’re going to drink then you’ll head to a meeting. Some extra insurance maybeh.
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keep us posted on your journey hopefully youl have found sober friends and nature
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