I fucked up… don’t deserve to be here
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You deserve to be here. Don’t leave. I’m here too, and I’m here for you … you can message me directly next time… and we can message back and forth to help distract your mind… today is a new day friend
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I did yesterday too. So I grabbed a bag lunch size bag of Doritos that had been staring me in the face all week and ate them and washed it down with a flavored lacroix. Not the best resolution but I didn’t drink. I have n/a beer, a mocktail recipe book, 6 different flavors of lacroix and Pot seltzer when I really need to calm down. And my vape. If I had to give that up to I’d lose my mind. Does any of this help?
I have a rocking “Paloma” mocktail recipe i can send if you like grapefruit. It’s really good
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Just saw this post - i am so sorry that the cravings were so bad — they can be so intense and overwhelming.
NO WAY do you not deserve to be here love. We are a family here and you belong with us. Do not let the addiction win and take you down the shame hole. You relapsed and can totally start your day 1 today. We are here to support you.
It really is once second at a time in the beginning. Need to surround yourself with good support and a plan of attack. Like what to do to keep yourself busy / distracted. What substitutes to have on hand (i really enjoyed the La Croix drinks). What events / social gatherings to avoid till you felt strong enough.
Here for you love - hope that you can get plenty of rest and drink loads of water to get yourself prepped for a wonderful day 1. 
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You definitely deserve to be here. Let’s go again. Do you wanna start racking up the sober again? We will be here.
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I used to think that way too when I couldn’t get a hold of my sobriety. The only difference is that I didn’t immediately return and admit I failed. You did, and that counts for something. Don’t give up
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Very true, I used to dig myself even further in to a hole and stay there.
You can start again @Button83 well done for coming back.
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I echo what everyone else has said my lovely!! YOU definitely deserve to be here, yesterday has gone and today is a new day, new mindset and new beginnings sweetheart!! ALWAYS here for you, welcome to DM me also. Stay strong and just breathe 
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So far I’m having a very emotional morning. Yes I drank and I’m back to square one. I feel very angry right now. And I feel like crying well I mean I am crying.
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Honestly… I am in awe of you… you took a step back… but you came back and said it… that’s something I’m not sure I could have ever done… so you’re back to square one, maybe… but your miles ahead of me as far as your accountability. Feel the feels… cry it out… and stay here and keep going. I am so proud of you, which is strange, bc your a stranger… but I am.
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Today will feel super emotional hun. Try not to beat yourself up, I know it’s hard. You are here and that’s taken great strength from you! 
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Every time I drink something negative happens last night it wasn’t even anything I did. It was my significant others X who was also drinking with her friends and decided to start harassing him and being verbally abusive and belligerent. I didn’t know about this until this morning but I guess I would be able to handle it a lot better if I wasn’t feeling shitty. It makes me wanna cry that he’s hurting.
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Me too. I gave in. Now I am hungover again. Fak. The whiskey don’t cheat and the beer don’t hurt me cigarettes don’t tell made up stories. But they damn sure drown my pain when you do.
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I can completely relate to what you just said. Even the things that are said to me are so disgusting and it’s not an excuse to drink and I didn’t make it better but I feel like shit and I feel defeated and I feel like I’m always in the wrong. 
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This is exactly why this place is here. To support each other in our time of need.
Let go of the shame and guilt and dislike for yourself. It doesn’t do any good.
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I feel like I need a long walk around Westwood lake to clear my head.
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Beautiful place to do just that. Little mucky today I’m sure but still beautiful.
Hey… you’re here and posting.
Just a suggestion: bookmark this thread for yourself. Next time you’re craving badly, and when it feels like it’s the only way to respond to the world around you, come back and read it and how you’re feeling. The point is not to shame yourself! But to keep it as a strong reminder of what doesn’t work.
It’s a good day to be sober, no? Be sober with us today. 
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How do I book mark this thread?
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I think you click on the three little dots?
Glad you are here today Button. Really glad. I am in the struggle too.
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