I did yesterday too. So I grabbed a bag lunch size bag of Doritos that had been staring me in the face all week and ate them and washed it down with a flavored lacroix. Not the best resolution but I didn’t drink. I have n/a beer, a mocktail recipe book, 6 different flavors of lacroix and Pot seltzer when I really need to calm down. And my vape. If I had to give that up to I’d lose my mind. Does any of this help?
I have a rocking “Paloma” mocktail recipe i can send if you like grapefruit. It’s really good
Just saw this post - i am so sorry that the cravings were so bad — they can be so intense and overwhelming.
NO WAY do you not deserve to be here love. We are a family here and you belong with us. Do not let the addiction win and take you down the shame hole. You relapsed and can totally start your day 1 today. We are here to support you.
It really is once second at a time in the beginning. Need to surround yourself with good support and a plan of attack. Like what to do to keep yourself busy / distracted. What substitutes to have on hand (i really enjoyed the La Croix drinks). What events / social gatherings to avoid till you felt strong enough.
Here for you love - hope that you can get plenty of rest and drink loads of water to get yourself prepped for a wonderful day 1.
I used to think that way too when I couldn’t get a hold of my sobriety. The only difference is that I didn’t immediately return and admit I failed. You did, and that counts for something. Don’t give up
I echo what everyone else has said my lovely!! YOU definitely deserve to be here, yesterday has gone and today is a new day, new mindset and new beginnings sweetheart!! ALWAYS here for you, welcome to DM me also. Stay strong and just breathe
So far I’m having a very emotional morning. Yes I drank and I’m back to square one. I feel very angry right now. And I feel like crying well I mean I am crying.
Honestly… I am in awe of you… you took a step back… but you came back and said it… that’s something I’m not sure I could have ever done… so you’re back to square one, maybe… but your miles ahead of me as far as your accountability. Feel the feels… cry it out… and stay here and keep going. I am so proud of you, which is strange, bc your a stranger… but I am.
Every time I drink something negative happens last night it wasn’t even anything I did. It was my significant others X who was also drinking with her friends and decided to start harassing him and being verbally abusive and belligerent. I didn’t know about this until this morning but I guess I would be able to handle it a lot better if I wasn’t feeling shitty. It makes me wanna cry that he’s hurting.
Me too. I gave in. Now I am hungover again. Fak. The whiskey don’t cheat and the beer don’t hurt me cigarettes don’t tell made up stories. But they damn sure drown my pain when you do.
I can completely relate to what you just said. Even the things that are said to me are so disgusting and it’s not an excuse to drink and I didn’t make it better but I feel like shit and I feel defeated and I feel like I’m always in the wrong.
Now’s a good time to consider that you weren’t craving a drink, you were craving an escape or a change in how you were feeling. What was going on emotionally, and in your thoughts? Apart from the drama of the moment? How did you feel and what did you think and believe in response to the feeling?
You are capable of change and you are worth the effort. And in the end, every little thing is gonna be alright .
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