Reasons for fighting

  1. I don’t want to give up my deepest desires for short term ones.

  2. I don’t want to give up on being happy.

  3. I have someone I want to become, standards to attain.

  1. Giving up would be giving the people who quit on me the satisfaction and that’s disgusting.

  2. I’ve got this rad body that does stuff like move around and all. Wouldn’t be right to toss it in the trash.



Happy Birthday!!

  1. I am finally telling people I am not drinking, I don’t want to then turn around and start back up again.
  2. I look forward to the challenge of interacting socially sober.
  3. It is so rewarding being at a party and playing with my girls rather than pushing them away and staying close to the bar

  1. My kids
  2. My pets
  3. My kids

  1. I got this fantastic weighted blanket and I want to enjoy it uninterrupted.

  2. I want to end up the same place as my mom after life.

  3. Happy birthday to me!!!


Happy Birthday!

  1. The truth finally coming for me
  2. Finally have a nice ass
  3. Real direction

  1. I want to enjoy my afternoons with my girls, not struggle thru them
  2. Work life would barrier me if I weren’t 100%
  3. My daughters know so much more than we realize, I don’t want them learning horrible life long habits from me.

  1. I can buy more gifts for my love ones.
  2. I can have more money for Trips.
  3. I can hopefully drop a few lbs.

  1. I hung out with people today. Had I not been clean I wouldn’t have felt good about doing it.

  2. I think it’d be great to be clean through Halloween.

  3. What kind of example am I setting for my brothers?

  1. I want to get thru this weekend sober, I will then forever remember my daughters first year of soccer as my first sober months.
  2. Still have way to much to stay on top of in my house to waste time drinking.
  3. My girls look up to me

  1. I can improve the overall quality of my life

  2. I can look into mirrors in public and smile instead of wanting to run and hide

  3. I can go to bed sober , which is really a sweet feeling


Love this post
3 reasons for today

  1. Making sure my daughter has a fun child hood and not seeing her father drunk
  2. My mental health drinking gives me terrible anxiety
  3. Making sure I get back to being healthy so my daughter has a father

  1. If I can’t see myself as a good person then maybe I’m doing something wrong.

  2. I have more energy

  3. Do I want this to follow me forever?

  1. I really want to start running again
  2. My anxiety stays in check sober.
  3. I love not being ashamed of myself in the morning

  1. The farther I get from where I was, the more content I am.

  2. I need to stop seeing myself as weak. It’s been proven that a growth mindset allows for growth, I can be a stronger person.

  3. I’m trying out some henna. I don’t want to be thinking about other stuff.

  1. My patience
  2. My daughters
  3. I want to enjoy my Sunday, not be hungover

  1. Being less angry.

  2. Smiling more often.

  3. Thinking more clearly.


My reason for fighting. My beautiful daughter Madison