So when i was younger i believed in God and Jesus and the Bible etc. I went to a youth group for a few years ages 10-13 but i stopped going when i was 14 due to something that happened to me.
We had a sleepover and a friend of mine assaulted me that night. We were sleeping right next to each other and she just started touching me while i was asleep and I tried to shove her off but she was older and stronger than me and I couldn’t stop her.
That incident happened in our church. I stopped going soon after that. I lost faith, i was angry that God would let something like that happen to me even after all the shit i went through as a kid.
Recently in my sobriety, especially at meetings, i hear about trusting in a higher power. And my higher power is Jesus. And today I went to church for the first time in years. It was a different one than where i once went, but it felt so warm and welcoming. I missed that.
It might not seem like much, but after being hurt in a church and going through all that stuff being in one again without being scared was nice. It felt like a good step for me, that even though that “friend” broke my trust and hurt me it still wont take away my faith.