Hey Reese
What’s going on? Hope you are doing well. Miss seeing your posts.
Wishing you a happy new years 
Day 357.
Hi @JazzyS, I’m here and hanging in there. Getting close to one year!
I’m very grateful to be past the holidays. I’m having issues with my sleep schedule. Getting tired midday and taking a nap, staying up later than my bedtime, sleeping in late, rinse and repeat…. My sleep doesn’t feel restful, more like my body and mind are attempting to escape the chaos of the holidays. I’m hopeful that I can get back on track now that I’m past this hump.
Almost a week until a solid year of sobriety. That’s crazy to me to think about. Very grateful that I made it this far.
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This is amazing - can’t wait for your 1 year milestone and to celebrate with you
Yeah to making it through the holiday season 
Hope the sleep schedule regulates soon - I know how hard that can be.
Great to hear from you friend. Keep up the wonderful momentum and self care 
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Day 359.
Doing okay. I slept all day today. Literally all day. Occasionally getting up to eat or use the bathroom, then going back to sleep. I’m trying to push away the feelings of guilt and shame, and instead trying to be gentle to myself and convince myself that I probably needed it. Easier said than done, but still.
One day at a time, I guess. That’s all any of us can do.
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Yes ..makes sense after the holiday season and all the emotions that were brought up. You did need it. We are unable to sleep when we are fully recharged. It’s impossible. So the fact that you were able to is a big indicator that you did infact need it.
I do hope you continue to be gentle with yourself. Much love to you. 
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Rest is so necessary and so underrated. I am glad you were able to sleep. The body and mind are healing when we are sleeping.
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Day 361.
Doing okay. Had a good therapy session yesterday. I feel like i got a good amount of sleep last night. Going to try my best to get through today. I can and will do this.
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Day 364.
So close to a full year of sobriety. That’s crazy to think about. Been kind of stressed and exhausted, so I’m trying to just rest and recharge as much as I can. Not much else to say. No real cravings to get high. Overall, I can day that I’m happy. 
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1 Year of Sobriety!!
This is where I was a year ago, after my last relapse when the last of my pet rats passed away. Dealing with seasonal stress and approaching a mental breakdown that put me out of work for months and completely changed my reality.
I’m here now. Working a new position at my job that pays well and makes a difference. Learned a lot of tools and coping skills for both my mental health and my sobriety. Watching my niece and nephew grow up. Being close with my family and allowing myself to be loved.
There are hard days. But I’m determined not to let the hard days win.
I’m so grateful to this community. I would not have made it this far without you all. From the bottom of my heart, thank you.
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Soooo very excited to see this. You have come a long way! Very happy for you…so proud of your journey and all the work you are putting in daily.
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So glad I happened to stop by and seen this . Congratulations on 1 year Reese!!
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Amazing! 1 year is huge!
Congratulations!!!
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Congratulations 
that’s a huge achievement.
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Day 367.
Doing okay. Had some disturbing dreams last night but I’m getting through it. Going to do some yoga and then therapy this afternoon. Number one priority is sobriety, and that will be the foundation for everything else. ODAAT.
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Day 369.
I figured out why I’ve been having nightmares again and feeling this anxiety deep in my gut. Today is my younger brother abuser’s birthday, so it’s digging up a lot without me consciously realizing. My Tarot reading last night was eerily on point: releasing burdens, transition/transformation, going through a painful journey to reach a better destination.
I have a mantra for myself today: I am joyful, I am peaceful, I am safe. Thankfully I’m doing office work today so I won’t have to be “on” for my patients, and can just try to glide through the day.
Whatever happens, however I feel, getting high will NOT help. I’m going to get through today sober, no matter what.
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Wishing you a day as peaceful as it can be, and fingers crossed you’ll get a good nights sleep soon. You got this!
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Day 371.
Yesterday I called out of work. I had a migraine and needed to catch up on sleep. Horrible and traumatic nightmares like you wouldn’t believe. I guess my subconscious is trying to process all the trauma and things I was talking about in my last post…
I’m feeling pretty good today. Well rested and I actually had good dreams last night! I feel much more prepared to take on work. Had a good breakfast, going to do morning yoga before I get ready. Today will be a good day. I can and I will do this.
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Day 375.
Doing okay all things considered. Struggling with anxiety moreso than usual. Been playing a lot of Animal Crossing to help pass the time. I had an appointment with my psychiatrist yesterday and we’re seeing if a dose increase for one of my meds will be helpful. It’ll take a couple of weeks to notice a change, but I already have a mood tracker, so we’ll see.
Didn’t sleep much last night, but I got up on time and made myself breakfast. Going to finish my coffee, do my morning yoga, and get ready for work.
Have a good day, sober fam.
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Day 377.
Feeling pretty anxious this morning. Yesterday I fucked up and slept all day–sleeping through my alarms and several phone calls from my boss. I didn’t wake up until 4pm when she called me for the 4th time, and I was confused and groggy and could barely keep my eyes open. She told me not to come in and she’d see me tomorrow (today).
I feel awful. I did stay up late the night before, but I also had an increase in one of my medications and I took it late, so I’m wondering if that affected me. Even after that phone call I just fell asleep again, I couldn’t stay awake. I woke up on time today and I’m just so anxious and future tripping about what today will bring. I’ve never been written up in any job before, so I’m really nervous that’s going to happen–and honestly it is indeed my fault for fucking up and basically being no call no show yesterday.
Augh! Trying not to freak out too much. I just finished my coffee and breakfast. Going to do some quick yoga then get ready for work. I still feel a little groggy but hopefully the coffee will help. Send good vibes please.
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