Welcome Ulric,
Congratulations on your 5 months sober.
You are lucky to be alive. I learn a lot from people like you. I continue to hear each time someone goes out it gets worse and worse.
I have built a great support network here and at AA. And I am not afraid to ask for help. I know if I go back out I could die.
There’s a great check in thread people use on the daily. Checking in daily to maintain focus #83 - #534 by CanadianGirl
I use to listen to Chapter 3 in the Big Book. Google it! I listened to it over and over again. I cannot drink like a gentleman. Never did. Never will.
Have a good read around. Join in when you’re comfortable.