And excessive drama, mind boggling introspection about why you can’t relate intimately in a normal way, self loathing while you look for your underwear trying to quietly dip out before you have to eat breakfast, agonizing days of waiting for your period to come or enough time to take a pregnancy test, shit talk from people about what a slut you are assuming people you fuck might know eachother.
I don’t think I have a sex addiction. I do think I had a massive promiscuity problem before I had my son. I don’t know why I did it or why it was relativly easy for me to stop. I do know that everything you said and that I said were a part of my day to day life for about a year and a half. I graduated highschool a virgin. Between the ages of 17 and a half and 19 and a half (when I got an std and found out I was 5 months pregnant with my son) I had slept with 4/5 of the sex partners I have had in my lifetime. The sex with the remaining 1/5 over the next 17 years was increadiably more fulfilling and my self esteem about myself has been so much better.
@Chey, I am so excited for this path you are on. There is so much waiting for you. hugs