Glad you are here! This is a great place to find support and resources for living sober and combating addiction!
Addiction certainly can creep. I think that’s part of why it’s so insidious. I had a period of 3 years sober and then in crept the “I can handle drinking again” thoughts. Despite the decade and a half of terrible experiences and evidence to the contrary, I chose to drink.
It can ALWAYS be worse, I’m glad it wasn’t. Definitely something to consider before the next time you think about drinking/using.
Good to hear, now you need to act. Find a community for support and contact a medical professional about medication and/or therapy. You can do this.
This thread below has a lot of good insight, give it a read!
https://talkingsober.com/t/whats-your-plan/177233
Like I said before, I’m glad you’re here and I’m glad you’re reaching out for support. Both are steps in the right direction. Remember that you are not alone in this struggle. Please don’t hesitate to reach out if you need additional support, there are plenty of people here who are willing to listen and share their experiences with addiction and recovery! I’m looking forward to reading more about your sober journey! 
