Dears,
I failed on day 23 of sobriety, and after a few days of daily drinking, I went into binging on Thursday, became mad, raging, made a scandal at a bar, passed out in my backyard, then attacked my husband, totally insane, and threw objects on him. I think I had 10-12 beers with 4 shots of vodka, fair enough for two dudes. Of course hubby meant to file for a divorce, which is absolutely understandable. We had a booking for 3 days at a nice hotel, I was about to bring the kids by myself, husband refused to come, but my poor daughter was also super scared of my behaviour, so they both stayed at home and I took my son only. The spa was great and other programs were nice too. I did consume some wine and beer, but stopped again, I take my Klonopin and we are just travelling home with son. My husband talks with me again and withdraws from divorce plan because I managed this trip well and controlled myself. He wants me going back to AA, and to see a doctor. He is right. My family suffered a lot from my drinking, so did I, so have to hang on and get sober again, permanently. I just had huge luck getting away with this last raging madness. Wishing my Christian fellows a merry Easter.
Hello,
If able, check into a recovery center ASAP.
Going back to AA is a great suggestion by your husband. I also suggest getting a sponsor and working the program. But make sure you’re doing it for you. I’ve seen too many people come into AA trying to save their marriage and many don’t succeed because they’re not ready to do it for themselves. Wishing you the best on your journey.
I’ve done what you said and more. Kept going until my marriage ended and kept racing to the bottom. First thing is to realize and admit that you cannot drink…period! You are not one of the people that can moderate. I kept going back to worse and worse results. Main thing to remember is that you need to want to quit for you. No one else. That is the only way it works. I thought my life would be boring not drinking, but it is the opposite.
Get to meetings AA or SMART and keep at it. You got this!
Hi Dexter, I may only consider outpatient program/counselling and AA, since I am a primary breadwinner of a family of 4, I’ve been on the rollercoaster for the past few years, sober for 1 month, 3 months, 1 month, 5.5 months then 23 days, but during each relapse period I was doing terrible things. Yes, I do know sobriety is the only option.
Hi Chris, yes, just as explained, I am going to see a doctor and go to AA meetings 3 times next week. Sadly, a few weeks ago, early in recovery, I spent my specialist’s fee savings on a gym membership, and that was not the smartest action of mine…
Hi Lisa, thank you for your attention, my husband and I have a long love story of 14 years, we broke up once, then remarried in 2020, and I do not want to quit drinking just for him & the kids, but for knowing that I won’t make it until age 40 if do not quit permanently. 24 hours milestone just hit again right now… will not give up…
Hello Kyle, I can relate to you because I know that my chances are shallowing each time I have such an outrageous relapse with excessive alcohol abuse. I still did not loose job and/or marriage, and did not end up in ER/ICU, but I am about to fall apart next time. My sober times are overall very good, with little urges, but a few intense stress factors push me off the sober track easily.
Hello! Welcome. I have also been a crazy drunken person who has threatened and has been threatened by divorce. Vacations are hard because we let our guard down. You should give AA a try. So many people who,will relate to you. In the meantime, try listening to recovery podcasts and reading all you can. Best wishes for a Happy Easter.
CV,
I too failed time & time again at sobriety while an Out-patient; it wasn’t until I participated in a 30 day In-patient recovery program that I Learned & Personalized my Abstinence.
Please consider going to your employer in transparency about your addiction and subsequently ask for vacation time and/or another HR program to address your Need(s).
Your Life is worth much more than monetary and social discomfort!!!
I agree completely with Dexter. Tried and tried and tried; AA meetings, out patient rehab and nothing worked until I went to a live in rehab for 1 month. It was the best thing I ever did and finally understood. Hoping the best for you.
Peter.
CV,
When you have a moment consider watching “28 Days”.