Relapsed after a week im getting old for all this

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I really have had enough of this destruction on my physical and spiritual self.
Its not like when i was younger easier to bounce back. I been in snd out of clean time and usage and honestly have never been clean more than 2 months ever.

Im hoping to give it my probably 1000 time to stay clean the longest or forever.

Im gonna use this app to the fullest this time i kinda bern lacking here hoping by giving i can help myself and others

Please pray for me tx

Me 1 week clean felt so good …

Need to bring my real self back in order right now…

I pray for as many days clean i can do

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and salvation!

THIS PIK WHEN USING

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ITS SO UNREAL THE CHANGES ITS SOMETIMES GOOD TO SEE HOW IT REALLY AFFECTS US not to mention aging me a decade over night

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Glad you’re here! What’s your plan to stay sober?

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I am going to do meetings this time a round maybe crawl out side of my intervertedness and find a sponsor…

I used cause i was bored stupid excuse i need to find healthier distractions i guess…

Its unreal how less i like being high as my years go bye
Which im grateful for…

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Going to meetings is a great step. As far as boredom goes I read a lot of books and watched movies when I was early in sobriety.

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I slept a lot in early days as well. Reading also was very important to me.

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I feel the same way I just relapsed after 6 months and feel shitty😒 just keep trying you’re beautiful!!

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Meeting make it easier ,and thats what we all want.m wish you well

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I also relapsed. I know the feeling. But im trying again.

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Tx my love… every day is a step ahead.