I was almost 53 days clean from pot and everything else.
I’ve fucked it up. Had some drinks. I just feel terrible. But at least I’ve been honest. Just feeling such shame and guilt. Why did I do this to myself.
Restarting my clean time has hurt my mentally and spiritually. Why did I pick up a drink. I’ll tell you why because I wanted to fit in. Big mistake. I shouldn’t of done it. But I know that now, I know it wasn’t the way. I don’t need to use alcohol OR anything to to fit in.
The fellowship is all I need and the program as well as steps to help me stay clean, sober and become wealthy in terms of my spirituality.
I am broken.
Pray for me. I know there is no judgment.
Thank you for understanding.