Relapsed by using alcohol

I was almost 53 days clean from pot and everything else.

I’ve fucked it up. Had some drinks. I just feel terrible. But at least I’ve been honest. Just feeling such shame and guilt. Why did I do this to myself.

Restarting my clean time has hurt my mentally and spiritually. Why did I pick up a drink. I’ll tell you why because I wanted to fit in. Big mistake. I shouldn’t of done it. But I know that now, I know it wasn’t the way. I don’t need to use alcohol OR anything to to fit in.

The fellowship is all I need and the program as well as steps to help me stay clean, sober and become wealthy in terms of my spirituality.

I am broken.

Pray for me. I know there is no judgment.

Thank you for understanding.

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A big hug brother

I think the most important aspect to your thoughts is you do have a choice! That can carry you a long way if you really commit to that thought.

To me that was over half the battle. The addiction will tell you, it’s not a choice or a decision, but a necessity. You can be stronger than your addiction.

Prayers and hugs to you. Don’t let the guilt cripple you. It’s a journey, and we may stumble, but getting back up is what counts.