Ive just reset again for I don’t know how many times. Right now I’m setting small goals. I’m going for three days sober the take it from there. Small steps.
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Welcome!
Read around, good stuff here to start and maintain recovery. use the searchbar for keyword look up.
I hear you. I keep relapsing again and again. I feel like I need to lock myself up to stop. I feel so week. I really need to stop before something really bad happens.
May be helpful to get professional help and inpatient detox and rehab. You can call your GP to talk about opportunities at your place.
Same I’m back on day 1:sob:
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Welcome! What will you do to make it stick this time? Great stuff to read around here on TS. Use the searchbar above for specific keywords e.g. ressources for recovery.
Wish you well.
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Them…I’m new to this app so I have no clue how to work this thing and idk what I’ll do different😭
Totally been there myself. Ten plus years of it. What Dana said was all so true especially for me, the part about reaching out as soon as I crave!! I’m on day 8! I think I made it this far 4 years ago and then relapsed. Not this time. This place has also made all the difference. Keep scrolling, keep reading, keep sharing and totally reach out whenever you need to. There are so many people here to support you, give advice, and inspire. I honestly feel like if I can do it, you can do it. I really didn’t think I could. I was sooooo angry at myself. Honestly just wanted to just give up on life. Today, on my 8 th day, I’m waking up on cloud nine. Life is getting better and better. It hasn’t been easy, but it’s all been worrh it. I feel kind of silly saying that after only 8 days, but this has been a constant battle for so long , so 8 days for me is so HUGE and I can’t tell you how amazing I feel everytime I beat a craving. Glad you’re hear 
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Hey girl, I’m sorry u relapsed 
it feels so defeating but don’t give up! Look back at what happened. Make ur relapse a learning experience. What happened that brought on those using thots? Was it emotions? A person? Seeing something that reminded you? If u can go back and see what happened, then u can create a plan for future similar situations. Maybe it’ll show u what u need to add into ur recovery OR take away? For example: adding meetings(in person or online or maybe its showing u to ask for help 1st before u pick up)… or maybe it’s getting rid of certain stressors or removing a toxic friend? Idk what ur situation is exactly… but relapsing doesn’t have to be necessarily a bad thing. We can learn from it 
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Yes Dana! Getting rid of toxic relationships is soooo key. I finally got rid of that toxic client I had mentioned. Seeing her twice a week for almost the last ten years too!! I feel so free. Never wanted to lose on a a great contribution to my income, but my health is wayyyyy more important!!!
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Oh yay girl!!! Thay makes me sooo happy to hear this! Really proud of you that must have not been easy
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No it’s wasn’t easy, but easier than I thought it would be… You see, she had a bit of a tantrum, and started being very aggressive with her words and actions which confirmed with me why I had to let her go. She had just paid for another set of sessions, and when she started going on at me I simply said " I’m sorry you feel that way, but I’m going to go home and refund your payment and I wish you all the best in the future"
She proceeded to follow me to my car saying"don’t you walk away from me" and I just repeated what I said before and got in my car and drove home:clap:
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Omg girl!!! Thats not ok what she did. Super disrespectful!!! U don’t need that and I’m so glad u listened to ur instincts and let her go! Amazing work
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First I threw out all the alcohol. Had a good dinner and trying to focus on one moment at a time. I will try not to look too far in the future and will come on this site as much as I can. I heard the book the naked mind is good and will get a copy. Also I will attend a zoom meeting. One day at a time I will work on my sobriety.
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So good to read this! I agree with @Butterflymoonwoman, removing toxic people is such a relief. And creates space for healing and new people to enter one’s life 
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That sounds like a good plan 
Keep it one day at a time, when necessary from minute to minute. And be kind to yourself. Healing takes time and detoxing is strenuous. Check out for the threads here, especially for support in early sobriety. I take multivitamin supplements regularly, maybe have a look on this topic too. Small inputs to help your body recover can have a huge positive impact on mental stability.
Keep us posted 
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10 days ago i was on same position but i always think of becoming sober but failed every time. Dont make long goals first prepare your mind and remind yourself in morning that i will do it today. if u fail again next day keep in ur mind that you have to do it. Take your decision while thinking of the bad what alcohol had done to you. Restart n restart with this thinking each time you fail. You can take some kind of Antabuse in morning time as it will create fear in you mind of not drinking in starting but remember antabuse will protect only if u have will. Day after day igonre your cravings 1 day then 2 day after 7 days you will be more cravingless. Watch videos related to alcohol abuse n their stories of recovery daily n problems created by alcohol … n dont think alcohol as a problem think it as a disease and you have to recover from it anyhow.
Had a good day yesterday and a good sleep too. Off to work today
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Yes Panku, changing my mindset on this really made a difference. I keep reminding myself it’s my brain having the craving…not ME!!! I really truly don’t want a drink, but my brain chemistry is all messed up and the more I go without and with each craving I beat, the healthier my brain will become and the less it will try to trick me into feeling like I **NEED ** alcohol.