Well my wife and I had date night on Friday and I gave into drinking. Actually we had a pretty good night. Kids were at Grandma’s and Grandpa’s. And we went out for dinner. All good…kind of.
Even though there were no issues. I felt that beast brewing inside and didn’t enjoy myself like I have been being sober. I wasn’t connected. As much as it killed me to reset this morning, I feel great. I realized I’m missing nothing. Sobriety is so much more peaceful and beautiful.
We never loose…we learn. And I have learned that being sober is much better than that scared and unsettling feeling of being drunk.
I’m pumped to start a new journey. I’m setting my sights on Christmas Day. Very symbolic. Death and Resurrection. Old self and new self.
@timetogrow That’s great you recognize you are more connected with your wife when sober and you aren’t missing anything. Two key two things I have discovered in my journey.
I am curious though if you have you asked yourself what pulled you over to decide to drink? Did anything happen that day or week? Was it the environment? Was it a craving? Etc.
My wife and I have always had a good time going out for dinner and having a few cocktails. She’s awesome and thats not usually where I have issues. I guess I love hanging out with her and having a few, especially when the kids are at Grandma and Grandpa’s and we don’t have any responsibilities in the morning.
The issue with me is that I am a binge drinker not so much a dependency probmem. I can go without it’s just once I get going I loose control and have hard time stopping. Especially is social environments where I am around alot friends.
My wife is good for me. She keeps my butt in check. One of biggest reasons for quitting is hate when I act like a knucklehead and disappoint her.
I like the way you speak positively and it gives me hope as well on my own journey. You are so very right life is so very beautiful and precious and im learning more and more that support, hope and healing is available. I wish you all the best and continue to keep on keepin on.
