Sick of relapsing. I’m really too old , will it only end with death? I always think of Amy Winehouse, and how they say she was abstaining and relapsed when she died. I know I am the captain of my ship, just thinking out loud why I choose to sink instead sail.
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You haven’t sank yet! You just hit a tough swell. You’ve taken on some water and lost some momentum and veered a little off course. Adjust your sails and become a more experienced captain having weathered another storm.
Tomorrow is a new day! Realign your heart and mind to your recovery compass and set sail to your desired destination once again
((Hug))
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Thank you for the encouraging words
I’m not as beautifully metaphorically minded as Naturehippy but like she said, you’re not lying on the bottom on the ocean. Keep going chick, the final accomplishment will be all the more when you remember how much you have been through to get there. If it was easy we wouldn’t all be addicts. Just think, this time next year we could all be recounting the conversations in these threads and seeing how far we have come. We’re the sober musketeers, all for one and one for all 
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Well that was F’in beautiful.
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im right there with u. i think of it too i always wonder if ill ever stop drinking why cant i be normal my dad is an alcoholic so is my grandma so does that automatically make me one too? im just meant to be one? i choose what i am babe so can u even though im fighting n only 4 days sober i can still give u some type of support i guess its okay. ure human
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Hang in there force! You are resourceful and strong 
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People get sober at different ages. I think we can never give up. Will it be easy? No. Will it be worth it? Absolutely. I’ve had 6 yrs, 3 months, 12 days and now I’m starting over (currently on day 3) after being out for awhile. I’m not a stranger to sobriety or relapse and know I want a better life for myself. Sobriety takes effort H.O.W.? Honesty, Open-mindedness, Willingness. Get support from like-minded people in sobriety, be willing to try different aspects of sobriety, go easy on yourself through self-care.
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hahaha, well that was one of the f’ing nicest things anyone has ever said to me! Seriously! You guys get me! Its like I’ve been speaking some weird foreign language all these years and people look at me like i have two heads… but I speak my truth on here and you guys really get what Im trying to say. Thank you for that! (hug)
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