Well last night I was hours from hitting 2 full weeks sober, and I decided to drink. I didn’t drink in those 2 weeks despite some emotional days, crabby/angry days, and social situations. But for what ever reason last night I couldn’t fight it. I didnt even really try to fight it. I think I was bored. It happened, and I am not going to regret it, those 13.75 days with no alcohol was probably more sober days than I had all of 2016. But I don’t like resetting the clock. And I didn’t like waking up with a bad headache (that hasn’t gone away) and feeling unproductive. This morning I missed out on that joy I get when I wake up early, not hungover, and enjoy the morning.
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At least you realized that you are missing out on those “hangover free” mornings when you drink! I’m sorry that this happened, but you’re still here and you are able to see that it wasn’t worth it. No one is perfect, and many of us are fighting the same battles. You can do it! 
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It’s so true that you cannot discredit the days you did go sober. Those days still matter. And know the difference between a lapse and a relapse. You’ve got this, keep going.
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your liver will rejoice the 15 day break
My first quit drink lasted the same. Just under 2 weeks. But you build on it with each quit. Now i am 16 days and happy to beat my last quit.
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I relapsed yesterday after day 16. Before that it was day 3 and my longest stretch after my rock bottom was 13 days, on day 14 as well.
Thankyou so much for sharing, your perspective has shed a lot of light on my own recent relapse too. I hadn’t thought of it that way, but then realised as you said it, that 16 days sober and 18 this whole month out of 20 days is more than all of 2016 put together. I reckon I had less than 8 sober days last year. And they werent even in the same month.
16 days was the longest stretch since having a baby in 2013 (completely abstinent through pregnancy until I stopped breastfeeding at 6 weeks).
Before that, it would have been 2011. Like you, I’m now trying to put a more positive spin on my progress and not dwelling so much on the relapse itself.
I feel like this community is so inspiring and honestly thankyou again for sharing. We’re all helping each other through this.
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I’m on day 6 looking at a bottle of wine and debating whether to have a glass but knowing tomorrow means reset again.