alcoholism is a progressive illness, that’s right your not weak or different, your ill and it will only ever get worse. Start taking actions that other long term sober people do. Get ready to hurt a bit in the short term and save yourself a life of agony in the long term. One day at a time.
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I just restarted both my sober times today from crack cocaine and crystal meth. Had 93 days and 63 days respectively. I’m more than a little disappointed in myself right now but that has to be short lived. The depressiins and the negative mind set will only breed more relapses. I’m getting back on the horse!!
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Thank you for sharing i hope you overcome this im trying my hardest
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Welcome! You can do this
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Try to use that frustration to get you through the day sober. Then try again the next day. It is really hard to create new habits. Take walks, take naps, feed your body good food and try to sit with that anxiety instead of drinking it away. You are worth the effort.
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Welcome to the community 
Its great to have you with us on this journey.
So much support here keep checking in daily, especially when it gets near day 4 try to keep pushing through it and let us know your struggling and lean on us 
You can do this 
Alot of us check in on this thread daily, maybe pop over say hi and take a read around others here on the same journey.
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I’m on 3 days again myself, not being able to make it past 5 days, it’s hard but at least we are not giving up we got this 
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Try a meeting they will help helped me wish you well.
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Do U mind sending it over too me also brother
bless you today and everyday!!!
It’s hard Charlie . Everytime I get in a few days- poof! I end up relapsing . I’ve narrowed it down to my self will as the problem: By holding on to it I get a green light to use. I really want to stop and I think God knows that. I continue to try again and stay in recovery material. It’s get better . I get stronger with each fall. Take care and god bless…
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To be honest: if it was only willpower keeping me sober I would be dead for a long time now. I see my willpower like a muscle which is strong when I get up in the morning and with every stressor coming along over the day or any adverse event it’s getting weaker and weaker. It’s exhausting to fight, to be strong every minute of the day. I have tried it so many times with only willpower (I would also classify moderation as willpower thing). What has helped me is connection to other people in recovery, talking, therapy and changing my relationship to alcohol or the DOC, to fundamentally understand and feel that this won’t do me any good, neither in the short nor in the long run.
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I relapsed after 5 years of sobriety. June of this year. One simple drink! I am Two days sober starting the process over.
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Good for you for getting back to a healthy sober life. With that kind of sober time you know how much better it is and how to get there and maintain. Welcome back! Hope you find participating in this community to be of support and camaraderie. It definitely had been important in my recovery.
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Hey friend! I’m so very glad you joined this community! Please keep sharing as you grow more comfortable with this community.
I’m so sorry to hear that. Getting sober took me 10 years of ever worsening bottoms and despair. Thankfully I stuck with it, never gave up, and accepted that alcohol had no place in my life. I participate in multiple recovery communities including this great community. I wouldn’t trade my life in recovery for anything. It’s a beautiful way to live.
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Hey Sonya thanks for your honesty . How are you doing? I had the to reset this am.
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Hay, so i restarted yesterday. But sometimes i just get lost and rebound.
I suffer from chronic pain and no amount of pain killers work, but one drink does and one leeds to too many.
Whilst i make a full admission of having a problem and cant use the chronic pain as an excuse either.
Unfortunately alcoholism is on both sides of my family. One functionong and one off it 30 years!
Main problem is my other half, he makes so hard making me feel like an ant in a mansion, u said this and done that etc… whilst its not in my personality to act in ways he mentions, i cant deny it cause i dont remember! 
So again im lost.
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I am sorry about the chronic pain and the cycle of using and guilt and shame. It is rough being caught in that. I remember the days of not being able to remember or know what to apologize for. It was soul sucking.
Taking drugs and alcohol out of the equation can make other issues less painful and can help our body heal some. Maybe not a full on solution to chronic pain, but in reality can be a step in the right direction, which I think you know. 
I am glad you are here and trying. Maybe meetings? I know they help a lot of people. Don’t give up. 
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