I quit pain pills in july, was able to get through all of the physical withdrawal. The mental ones were always still there. Then, I guess I was just too weak to speak up and had surgery in October and the rollercoaster made its way back around and scooped me back up. On day 1, I have 2 little ones at home and am a stay at home mom. I know if anyone should be my motivation its them. And they sure are. Anyone have any comments or advice they can give to help make this pass as painlessly as possible? Its freezing cold outside and we are cooped up so going out for a run or walk isn’t really an option atm. I’m trying to stay positive. Not only do I need to do this for myself and my kids, but alps to help finanically, I’ve drained us and it’s so embarrassing 
I’m 6 days into my detox of a full based diet of perc 30s all day everyday…I find meditation in a hot shower some type of music on and controled breathing really deep slow breaths help calm you…I’m personally using this terrible trip to hell and back as a reminder the next time I think I need to get high… Good Luck!
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Back at it again, day 1. Skin feels like it’s on fire, I’ve tried smoking, helped only momentarily. it took 3 months to feel semi normal. You would think I wouldn’t want to go through all this again but here it is I’m trying to keep myself from laying up in the bed all day. But I keep feeling sick thank you both for your responses. I’m sorry it took 4 months for me to respond. Just trying to remain positive
The first 3 months were rough for me but I’m now at month 5 and things are finally getting back to “normal”…although I somt think anything will ever be the same as before drugs, my life clean is a lot better than it was high. The constant battle and struggle of getting high daily is over and that is the biggest relief I’ve ever felt. Sleep may still come hard some nights, but I’ll trade that for the peace I have now easily. Keep your head up and don’t stress everything comes with time.
Congratulations rare.brew on 5 months!!! That’s so good to hear. I think I’m finally to the point where enough is enough. Not only for my health and my family but for our finances. Its embarrassing how broke I’ve made us and I can’t continue to put us in this position. my kids need their mother back, I was always on edge and finally can see the whole purpose for doing this. 
Dan_Alexander we can do this! Just keep pushing on…one day at a time. Do you have a sponsor? I don’t but I do have a couple good friends, one of which has went through something very similar and she’s on 5 years of her recovery and going strong. Her situation was much more intense than mine and she said if she can do it anyone can. Just think, just like rare.brew, it is very possible…it takes time and faith in yourself. I know I had only made it 3 months last time but I want to say somewhere around a month and a half I started sleeping better, at least 6 hours…might not be what we really want but it sure beats these 10 min dozes. You can do it, I believe in you friend. Just hang in there, I’ll be here as often as I can to talk if you’re feeling the desire and myself as well. That’s what we are all here for, to support one another in this battle and keep each other to stay strong 