Hey I’ve been using coke now for 5 years easily 4 times a week, started when my ex cheated on my and took my daughter, that one little line made me feel like a king, now I feel on the bring of losing everything my current gf has no idea of how bad I am, but I’m running out of excuses for never having money even tho I’m in a well payed job, any help and guidance is greatly appreciated
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Writing that message was a good first step. When I hit bottom and really became willing to do anything I could to stop drinking I went to AA, got a sponsor and started working the 12 steps. A 12 step recovery group worked for me. It seemed drastic at the time but it was the best decision I ever made and now am living a wonderful life.
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Feels like an incredibly small step good to hear a positive response, drastic is what I need
Finding a meeting (Narcotics Anonymous for example) and walking in, is easier for some than it is for others. But most people agree that Actually doing all the things recommended in the program is quite another ordeal, altogether. It is for people who really want it: not for those who need it.
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Completely agree with @Brando70. If you’re hurting and desperate enough, you’ll do anything to stop the pain and get sober. Is it easy? No. Is it worth it? Hell yes! It takes work…not just to stop using but to work on the WHY and clean away baggage from the past and moving forward as a better person. I’m a duel addiction and am also in 12 step recovery. Today you feel shitty but give yourself a chance. We’re all meant for better things in life than active addiction.
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I no it will worth it it’s just getting there, usual stuff is all going to have to change like today for example we all normally go for a pint at dinner which leads to me more drinks and inevitably coke
@Lcplsmudge I get ya…at least you can acknowledge that at the bottom of the bottle is another problem. Just be patient with yourself. Set boundaries with people and places that will trigger you. Everything is new again and foreign. You’re feeling your feelings without numbing. Your brain and body is trying to heal…feed it what it needs…healthy food and water, vitamins, rest, and exercise.
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In the beginning I remember it really sucked. I felt like I wasn’t going to have any life/fun anymore. Today I am free from the obsession and I am actually living and feel alive and happy and have lots of fun. The beginning feels pretty isolating. And everyone knows ur not drinking etc. Eventually I found meetings with other people in the same situation saved my life.
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@Lcplsmudge You are on the right path by sending this message. Jan 2 this year I didn’t reach out and the speed mixed with alcohol landed me in the hospital 5150 for 4 days. It was very hard to explain to my job why I was a no call no show for those days. Today I am 17 days clean and sober and life is real again. Keep your head up and keep reaching out people are always here. YOU GOT THIS!!!
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Cheers for the support guys trying to keep busy today
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In general, most people need to reevaluate their entire life, behaviors, triggers, and stop using all harmful mind-altering substances. Small amounts of alcohol use often leads to more alcohol use, which leads to other poor decisions. The best thing you can do is be honest with your support people (girlfriend, parents, etc.) and check yourself into a rehab or go to some kind of outpatient treatment. But the biggest change needs to come from within. You CAN do this.