Hey everyone, I’m new here. Just downloaded the app today after some recommended I do so. I’ve been clean from opiates for almost 7 years, but have used meth as a crutch off and on throughout. I’ve recently lost my job and place to live due to mental health reason, that were caused by the use of that drug unfortunately, but anyway, I’m just desperate. I’ve spent so many nights crying, hating myself, wanting to just give up and wishing it all would end and feeling hopeless because of this disease. Albeit my perseverance is strong because after a couple days I do stand tall and convince myself that I will not do it anymore and continue to truck forward, but I always end up collapsing a week or two after. I’m here cause I’m ready to give my life to sobriety to keep me clean. I didn’t really have to do that with the opiates, like go to meetings all the time and stuff, but it appears that I’m going to have to do that with this drug. Thank you for listening to me and my little story. God bless you all.
Welcome, brother. First off, 7 years clean from opiates is a huge achievement, even if your mind is trying to tell you otherwise right now. That proves you can recover and you do have strength in you already.
A lot of us know that cycle you described — the few days of hope, then crashing again after a week or two. Meth is brutal like that because it attacks your mind, emotions, sleep, confidence, and isolation all at once. But the fact that you came here and said “I’m ready to give my life to sobriety” matters more than you probably realize.
A few things that helped me and others stay sober:
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Don’t try to fight this alone anymore. Meetings, even daily at first, really help keep your mind grounded.
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Stay around sober people as much as possible, especially during cravings.
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Delete/block contacts connected to using.
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Eat, hydrate, and sleep whenever you can — lack of sleep is a huge relapse trigger.
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When cravings hit, don’t think about “forever.” Just focus on getting through today clean.
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Keep your days structured. Even small routines help a lot.
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Be honest when you’re struggling instead of disappearing into isolation.
And please remember: losing a job or housing doesn’t mean you lost your worth. Addiction and mental health can knock anyone down. What matters is you’re still here fighting.
You never have to do this perfectly. Just don’t quit coming back. God bless you too.
Thank you so much man. I just screenshot those bullet points and put them in my notes on my phone so I can look at them when I need reminding. But you’re right, the depression is absolutely brutal the first couple days while I’m high/coming down and it sucks but I’ll push through it. 
Just wanted to say welcome. It is awesome that you’re taking those steps to make a better life for yourself, and I can’t wait to see your progress –keep checking in here!!
Welcome! Glad you joined this amazing community!
I think this thread might be interesting for you to read: What's YOUR plan?
And maybe also this one: Advice for the Newcomer and Constant Relapser
Always come here when you think using might be a good idea. We are here for you!
Welcome 
Willpower alone is not enough, you need a plan, help and put in the daily work to create a life you don’t want to escape.
Keep posting, stay accountable 
@Shad
Your a insperation. I have never been without a place to live, even though with my lifestyle i might as well have had no place to live.
I dont have much experience but this
-My last drink i had , may have been roofied (half beer all day wasted,)
-Wife got beat up by a very big guy.
-im very sure my last drink was the beginning of a terrible thing, if i kept drinking. By 11am i would have been blackout drunk 1 night after my wife was forced to leave by my landlord.
My wife pulled me outta the house i was in.
Those 3 examples were what life was like for me
I always wondered where i would have been by 6pm, latest , if my wife didnt pull me out
Definitely will check them out today!! Thank you!